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Experimenting
| Fri, 04-16-2004 - 9:59pm |
Today I decided to try something new. I decided to just pretend for one whole day that the A never happened, that I never even knew xMM. OF course that meant I could not come to this board. ;) And also, I made a very conscious effort to direct any thoughts of xMM out of my head. Very hard to do -- like if someone tells you not to think about pink elephants and that's all you can think about... But it was good. I think I need to try this more often.
Now I'm alone, my #1 son is at a sleepover, #2 is asleep, and H is out w/ the guys. So I figured I'd check in. But like Clarice said that sometimes she thinks she comes here just to relive the A -- I don't think I do that, but I do think that I should really only come here when I'm having a tough day; sometimes I'm having a really good day, and I come here and am reminded of everything I'm trying to forget. Does that make sense.

So for me right now, since this is very fresh, I am trying to use this board as a way for me to stay STRONG and know there are others out there in a similar fight.
I am hoping one day not to be in need of coming here for the release but maybe just to check in every so often on some folks and offer some words of wisdom to help the next poor sap out ;)
Katie: it sounds like you have some peace and quiet now...you should be enjoying a nice long bath. I am sure these oppts. are seldom.
My H is watching the Yankees game and my son is sleeping...so I am on my computer checking in. Hope you had a good day. Sounds like you did. and congrats on your efforts to not think of xMM at all. I totally here you about the pink elephants the more you focus on not thinking about it the harder it is.
ps - i also decided to change my symbol...I changed it for Momesq. and then I figured you know what...we are all STARS! So my new one is a star.