feel like im losing control....
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feel like im losing control....
| Tue, 04-19-2005 - 4:24pm |
i havent spoken to MM since friday morning.. i cant stop thinking about him.. what is he doing where is he.. is he thinking about me... i know if he really wanted to talk to me he would find a way .. i guess he doesnt cause he hasnt.. said give him time to work on his family ... let things settle at home and i get that ,but im goin crazy ... i cant keep him off my mind.. and its only been since friday !!!! how will i make it thru.. if this should be forever?!?! ...the heartache is unbearable...i stay busy ,but every second my mind wanders i think of him... i feel like im losing it fast.. how do u deal ?!

whatamess,
u are having withdrawal symptoms to your addiction
u will suffer all the pain, anguish, confusion, lies and betrayal, all sorts of emtions will come out until u can accept that the affair is based on lies and it will not be good in the end, we are only fooling ourselves and living in a fanstasy world, sorry to be blunt but it is the reality of it, i too suffered from it and still am up to now
what he thinks is not your concern at all, what u think now is what should be your priority, look inside yourself and see what is missing and why u went into the affair, we all have our reasons and demons
u are not alone in the pain, we all are in pain here, well most of us and feel free to post , lots of folks here have good advice and they have good insights on how u feel and how u may deal with it
welcome to the board,
max
pls take care of yourself , not the MM
whatamess,
its hard, u have to have self control, i know its hard, i fall to the same trap all the time also, but a one point u have to say no , unless u like pain
no contact is the best way for most of us
take care,
max