Feeling Free!

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Registered: 07-25-2003
Feeling Free!
Sat, 05-01-2004 - 10:19am
i cannot describe this very well, but for the first time, because of my insights this week, i am feeling freer than i have in over a year!

When i think of xMM now, i picture a needy and charming parasite--that latched on to me to meet his many emotional and sexual needs. That's what i need to do for today--and it's working! I know he has latched on to someone else now--maybe his W or maybe another woman--instead of feeling jealous or insecure about it, i suddenly feel sorry for who ever that person is. The attention he can give is wonderful: but the downside is, he can suck all the life out of you, which he did to me.

Moving on with my day. I am coordinating a big volunteer event tomorrow at a local Aids hospice. Feel really good about that. Had a rewarding, if not difficult, therapy session yesterday with T and H.

But, gotta get thru little league on Sunday afternoon with the Parasite. I'm not there or available anymore for him to suck me dry. Oh, that feels so good.

What a process this all is. Hang in there, everyone. If i can get there, so can you!

Clarice