Feeling a little better

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Feeling a little better
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Thu, 03-04-2004 - 2:42pm
Today is day 3 of NC for me. I feel like I might actually be able to live again. No more secrets, no more lies. It's kida scary for me. It's been 17 years of secreacy, I feel like my life is an open book now. I feel free.

I'm sure I will have bad days, but I feel like the worst is behind me.

I don't think I could have made it without you guys. I'm so appreciative, I don't want to take you good hearted people for granted. So, Thanks for you kindness it was very much needed and appreciated.

Secretluver

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Registered: 07-08-2003
Thu, 03-04-2004 - 3:58pm
Dear Luver: I was glad to read your post. I'm feeling pretty crummy today, between missing OMM and feeling badly about the way I ended it. Last night I got 3 pathetic text messages from him just sounding so desperate. When I read your post it reminded me that missing him is an uncomfortable feeling but it will pass. Maybe later today or tomorrow morning I'll wake up feeling better about the whole thing. Sigh. This is just not easy. Thanks for sharing your positive vibes!

mo 7-18-10

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Thu, 03-04-2004 - 4:52pm
I'm glad that ex-MM is respecting my wishes, and keeping to the NC. I think he is angry, because I quit believing his lies.

If I thought for one minute, that ex-MM actually loved me. I would pick up the phone, and tell him I was wrong, and that I love him. I think my ex-MM is full of himself. He basically can't make a decision, he wants his cake, and eat it to.

If he had ever made me trully feel loved, I would have never ended it. I have a heart, and I truly understand life's circumstances. JUST DON'T LIE TO ME. If he had said, "I can't leave my daughter. I can't bare not seeing her everyday." I would have respected him, and loved him more. For being honest, and not trying to play me for a fool.

He doesn't know me very well. But, I'm sure I will have days where I truly miss him. I miss checking my caller ID to see if it was him, and if I wanted to answer. But, your life will go on, and you will feel happiness again.

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Registered: 04-02-2003
Thu, 03-04-2004 - 7:01pm
i am glad that you are feeling better. it is a long road to getting over the hurt...but it is possible....you are putting your own needs first instead of his...you are doing something that is good for you in the long run. He needs to respect that.

Jazzdiva