Feeling a little better
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Feeling a little better
| Thu, 03-04-2004 - 2:42pm |
Today is day 3 of NC for me. I feel like I might actually be able to live again. No more secrets, no more lies. It's kida scary for me. It's been 17 years of secreacy, I feel like my life is an open book now. I feel free.
I'm sure I will have bad days, but I feel like the worst is behind me.
I don't think I could have made it without you guys. I'm so appreciative, I don't want to take you good hearted people for granted. So, Thanks for you kindness it was very much needed and appreciated.
Secretluver

If I thought for one minute, that ex-MM actually loved me. I would pick up the phone, and tell him I was wrong, and that I love him. I think my ex-MM is full of himself. He basically can't make a decision, he wants his cake, and eat it to.
If he had ever made me trully feel loved, I would have never ended it. I have a heart, and I truly understand life's circumstances. JUST DON'T LIE TO ME. If he had said, "I can't leave my daughter. I can't bare not seeing her everyday." I would have respected him, and loved him more. For being honest, and not trying to play me for a fool.
He doesn't know me very well. But, I'm sure I will have days where I truly miss him. I miss checking my caller ID to see if it was him, and if I wanted to answer. But, your life will go on, and you will feel happiness again.
Jazzdiva