feeling weak.. leaving tomorrow

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Registered: 03-30-2004
feeling weak.. leaving tomorrow
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Wed, 06-08-2005 - 7:04am
i leave tomorrow on vacation for 4 days with my girlfriend.. its where i know ex MM will be.. i found out for sure he will be there so i wouldnt be surpirsed and wonder the whole time.. i been doin ok the past couple of days.. i think he blocked me from he AIM which saddend me then made me sooo angry , but now i see it as as good thing i wasnt strong enuff to remove him and i sat and saw him online all day and just wondered.. so thats progress... i still wonder but each day less..
Im feelin weak today cause I know a part of me wants to see him i know friday nite will be the nite i see him if it happens.. im goin to try to avoid where he will be .. but its not a big place... and i know i cant drink cause that will be disaster......
i just hope i have enuff strenght to deal with this and not fall back into this mess........ thanks for listening......wish me luck
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Registered: 11-02-2004
Wed, 06-08-2005 - 9:40am

YOU are the only one responsible for any further choices you make in this situation. Try to just enjoy those 4 days by putting XMM completely out of your mind, as if he went to the moon instead of the same place. If you see him, turn and go the other way.

I wish you luck and tons of fun,

Sunny
Sunny
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Registered: 04-15-2003
Wed, 06-08-2005 - 12:04pm

sounds like a no-win situation since you are so consumed with it! :(

hope reality hits you before you are faced with him!

Try to enjoy being on vacation and with your girlfriend instead of focusing on exMM!