feels good, so far
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| Tue, 01-27-2004 - 5:37pm |
I typed out the text and saved on my phone at the weekend to send on Monday, when i knew he'd be at work, i felt really good about it until I stood there waiting to send the message! but I did and told him it was goodbye. I asked him not to reply as nothing he could say could make it any easier for me.
He texted back 'ok I won't reply', thought he was mad and replied 'Why did you then! of course realised after it was to get me to answer.
I also sent him a letter telling him all I wanted, like I was glad he been in my life twice, all the usual romantic stuff, I meant it, but also told him we had to stop. He texted me when he got the letter, it was a nice text and he asked me a few questions about the letter, we texted back and forth a bit until I told him he had to stop giving me an excuse to talk and said goodbye again.
At this moment I am glad I have done it, I ended it as I wanted this time, said all I had to say to him and that has made me feel better having had that chance.
He texted me again tonight and guess what I ignored it, well I read it several times throughout the evening but didn't reply. yeah for me.
There is no ill feeling between us and that is good, now just need to be strong & to find a nice single man, god I could even start dating, 1st time in 12 years now that is scary.

Way to go, Natty!
Stick with NC and you'll get through the hard part and find your way to freedom.
After I ended my affair, with therapy (I HIGHLY recommend it), reading & posting here, and working very hard to get healthy again, I found a wonderful single man. I'm very happy now. It was hard work but worth every bit of it because I not only found him but I found myself first.
Good luck. I'm 45 (this week!), divorced several years and one year free of a 3 year affair. So I'm not some young babe who got snatched up. I'm a dear ole mom and it can happen for us too!