Finally, the right thing...
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Finally, the right thing...
| Wed, 01-21-2004 - 9:30pm |
Without going into all the gory details of this nightmare of mine (which I already posted about), I had an opportunity to see xmm tonight. He was in town for a job interview. I did not agree to see him. It took every ounce of strength I had to not see him. I figured he would just show up at my house, so I left for a while.
I guess that is a milestone in itself? Feel very strange right now, like maybe this is finally ending once and for all. Kind of numb, actually.
My two year long nightmare may be over and maybe I can start healing in earnest now.
All I can do is hope and pray.....

This is a milestone and a turning point for you. It was hard but you've got to feel really proud of yourself!
TCOM
of course it feels strange......it feels strange for you to be making decisions that are based on what's best for you....and it feels strange to choose to say NO! to the insanity of the affair behavior....and it feels strange to choose to put yourself first, where you belong......
you deserve so much more.....stay strong, and seek support wherever you can while you are going through the ending and healing process......i have found it immensely helpful to read and post here, speak to my most supportive friends (who know everything, of course), continue in therapy, and have found some great books on helpful related topics......i haven't made it to the "other side" yet, but i'm at 38 days of NC and i can tell you the numbness you're talking about does get better......there is hope!.......hugs to you.....ada
Now, time to put myself together again. This ending has been the longest, most drawn out thing I have ever been through. My divorce was easier than this has been and I was married for 22 years.
Yes, time to be selfish and concentrate on me. This board has been a godsend and I will continue coming here to help get the strength I need to continue doing the right thing. My next move may be to change my home phone number. I have received dozens, if not hundreds, of hangups over the last few months. He denied it, but they continued. I will give it some time yet to stop, but will change the number if necessary.
Thank you again.
Good for the ex too... don't care to talk to him much either!
This was a big step for you. Be very proud of your self okay? The situation is in your control and you have the power to end this and find some happiness for yourself. You are strong and deserve the best!! Hang in there and congrats on your big step!!!
Karry
Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige