FREEDOM

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Registered: 07-13-2010
FREEDOM
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Mon, 12-27-2010 - 11:54pm

I was reading my journal this evening and this is entry was shortly after our ending...week 5 of NC is today. Celebrating my new freedom!

"Letting go. So difficult but bringing peace as each day passes. Loving him means letting go. And loving me means letting go. Very sad from time to time but also refreshing to not be entangled in his life anymore. Free from always waiting to hear from him. Free from hoping not to lose him. Free from his crazy schedule and problems. Free from lying and sneaking around. Free from worrying about getting caught. Free from my self worth being wrapped up in him. Free from living a fantasy instead of real life. Free to decide what I want in life. Free."

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Registered: 08-18-2008
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 12:37am

Thanks for sharing a part of your journal. It is very kind of you to share something very personal with all of us. It is also good that you are looking back through your journal. It is good to see your progress and you will see overtime that feelings can change too. Sometimes as often as day to day this is why we cannot base our actions on feelings alone.

Much love and big hugs,

E1

Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.

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Registered: 11-10-2010
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 12:42am

I'm right behind you, Is-Love.

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-01-2010
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 2:19am

That's awesome! That is exactly what I said outloud when I read your post. Keep going!

xoxoxo

Love, Sunshine Dedicated to living my new life with integrity, truth and positive thoughts! I am worthy of true love and definitely worth the wait!
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Registered: 06-17-2010
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 10:36am

Freedom is a great word IsLove :) Freedom to be YOU. Real, healthy love allows for freedom.

Congrats on 5 weeks - that's wonderful!

Bodhi

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Registered: 10-30-2010
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 11:16am

Hi ILE,

Thank you for

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Registered: 10-14-2010
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 5:12pm

Isnt it SO BEAUTIFUL that you are surrounded by WOMEN and MEN who COMPLETELY GET where youre coming from?

You keep writing ILL, You've got a gift.

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010