get out the NC stick-I need smacked NOW

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Registered: 09-22-2004
get out the NC stick-I need smacked NOW
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Thu, 09-30-2004 - 8:17am
I need your support today. I have been doing amazingly well for the past few days. Keeping busy, spending time with friends and H. I have been positive and feeling like I am doing the right thing. Then I woke up today. I had a dream about him last night, I thought about him all morning, and then I saw his wife when I was leaving for work. I am so sad. Not only that..and maybe more so, I am pissed that he hasn't tried to contact me. For some reason, I want him to contact me so I can ignore him. How childish is that. I want to think he is feeling the same pain that I am feeling. Why do I care? because I'm evil I don't know. I know its only day 10, but I am caving....please give me support I really need it.

Our receptionist called off today so I have to put on a smiling face for clients. Hopefully they won't notice my big red nose and blotchy face because I've been crying all morning.

I want to call him......e-mail.....text.....anything.

:( Frisco

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Registered: 05-07-2004
Thu, 09-30-2004 - 2:38pm
To everyone:

Remember - ONE DAY AT A TIME! (One hour is easier).

If at first you don't succeed, TRY, TRY again!!

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Registered: 09-22-2004
Thu, 09-30-2004 - 4:09pm
Well, so far so good. There have been times today that I have actually picked up the phone to call and forced myself to walk away. I think I got my hopes up that it was going to be easy...the last few days have been. Then today happened.

Thanks to everyone for your support. I know his wife is home now so I wouldn't dare call. I could text, but I WON'T!! I have planned a million things this evening after work to keep myself busy.......hopefully I won't break down.

Thanks again!

:) Frisco

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Registered: 09-16-2004
Fri, 10-01-2004 - 10:05am
Good Morning Frisco,

How are you today?

I hope you are better. Its Friday, hope u have a great weekend. Be strong. I keep telling myself the same, I kind of look forward to Fridays because I spend alot of time with my girls and it distracts me from even thinking of OM. Have a great weekend.

Hugs

Lady Bug

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Registered: 09-22-2004
Fri, 10-01-2004 - 12:39pm
Hey Ladybug! I am doing a little better today, although my emotions are all over the place. I will be happy one minute, miserable the next. I am trying to just wait it out. I am leaving tonight for the Beach with H. We will be gone for a week, and I will not have internet contact...dear God give me strength! I hope you all do well over the next week and know that I am thinking of all of you!!!


:) Frisco

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Registered: 08-01-2004
Fri, 10-01-2004 - 12:58pm
I could totally relate to your post here frisco. I too wanted confirmation he was as miserable as I was. But I got it, and in all honesty, it wasn't enough. Plus it set me back big time as far as my *withdrawal*. arghhhhhhh!

Hang in there.

This thread btw is an awesome show of support. Loved every post. :)

Someday

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Registered: 09-16-2004
Fri, 10-01-2004 - 2:50pm
Hey Frisco,

I hope you enjoy your week. This can make u or break u. Make the best, try to truly enjoy yourself and reconnect with H.

Good Luck, Have a wonderful week.

HUGS,

Lady Bug....

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