Getting more difficult every minute

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Registered: 07-08-2003
Getting more difficult every minute
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Fri, 03-05-2004 - 11:36am
Hey all! Day 5 of NC and its getting worse. Last night I got 3 more text messages pleading with me. They were coming in the middle of the night (I checked the times). I did send him one single text message back, that "I knew this wasn't going to be easy for either of us." Well he responded with more pleas. I just don't know what to do.

On a personal level, he's someone I love dearly and I hate to see him in pain and struggling. For this reason alone I'm almost ready to see him. I can't help but put myself in his position and wonder what if he'd been the one to say goodbye first? How would I have coped? I know it didn't play out that way and the what if's are only going to drive me further crazy.

Please, anyone out there who's felt that they really broke their OMM's heart, how did you do it????? Am I loving and caring to admit that I'm not the right one for him and to let him go pursue a woman who meets his needs even though he swears I'm his soul mate? or am I just being mean and heartless and playing fast and loose with his emotions? Thanks guys. You're giving me strength! Love, Maureen

mo 7-18-10

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Fri, 03-05-2004 - 5:25pm
HI M

It is XMM that is playing fast and loose with your emotions not the other way round.

If it was him trying to end it would you torment him with text messages or would you have enough respect for his wishs to support him by leaveing him alone.

F