Give me the tough love, please!
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| Wed, 03-10-2010 - 4:58pm |
So, those of you familiar with my story, know that I have to maintain LC (very LC) because xap and I work together every quarter. Today, I am NC/LC 41 days and I could not be prouder. I've been doing very well. I "get" it. A flip has been switched in my brain.
Today, I had to send him a note about one of our projects. It was all business per usual. His response came back - and it was all business per usual too. It was short. And to the point. If it had been from anyone else, I would not have thought twice about it. But, before I knew what was happening, tears were streaming down my face. God, how pathetic am I. I feel so overwhelmed right now. I do know that these moments pass, but this is one of those moments for me, and in it, well you know- it just feels awful. Please, give me some tough love, or a hug if you prefer. I do know that I will be ok, but right now, I feel just awful.
Jane

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Dear Jane,
Nothing but a hug coming from me. I think what you experienced today was completely normal. We spend a lot of energy trying to make it through each and every day - sometimes we just get caught off guard. For me today, it was walking into our office after 7days NC and just smelling 'our' space. It took my breath away. We just have to greet these hard moments, and then send them on their way. I am going for a nice long run with my running partner in the hopes that it will help the lingering ache subside.
You're doing amazing Jane. At the end of the day, we are only human.
Love J.
You don't need tough love.
((Hugs))
I feel all achy today too. He came fishing yesterday at work, and I had to pretend I couldn't care less, and now sit here all teary-eyed. I am so envious of those who can go NC and never see or hear from them. I know I should be grateful that at least I don't have to see him every day, only couple times a week, but it is still so hard:(
XOXO
Gone
Jane,
Its ok....we have those. hell i have had some as of late, but as another poster said, we eventually greet em and watch them pass. You are entitled to feel, we all are. So do not be hard on yourself. Sometimes the magnitude of it all just hits us...and we do not see it coming. We are hit....n can not brace ourselves.
If anything, you ladies/gents in LC are my heroes/heroines!! You get the point....I thank the moon and the stars above that I do not have to see MM on a regular or limited basis....U guys do what I think is the tough stuff...It all is. Don't get me wrong, do not want anyone coming at me on LC vs NC...just saying, the fact you made it this far is a accomplishment. You have handled things with grace and that is all you can do. These moments will pass and will come far and few between.
Hang in there. Dry your eyes and give yourself a pat on the back and then keep it movin for tomorrow. Hope its a new better day for you.
Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
Thank you all for your responses. This afternoon was rough, but I came home to a wonderful meal cooked by my amazing DH and it all seemed to melt away. Coming here and reading all the hugs means so much. How can people I've never met touch me in such a meaningful way? Thank you! If I had not found this board at the exact moment I hit rock bottom, I would not be standing here on the other side of the A- 41 days out. I come here everyday and feel so a part of this community. Thank you all for sharing your stories, for sharing your support, and for being so strong. We can all do this.
Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
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Jane -
Sending you a ((hug))! Sounds like that was a rough day for you. But like the others, so proud of you!
I can't imagine having to work with XAP, how very hard that has to be. But, you are doing amazing, and it goes to show just how strong you really are.
Thinking of you and I hope today is a good day for you..and you have a smile on your face :)
RG
A big ((HUG)) to you. I think it's quite alright to feel sad and to cry for a little bit. I think it helps. Then you wipe away the tears and keep moving forward, sweetie. I hope today is better for you.
(((Jane)))
41 days is HUGE! There are so many of you gals coming and going that I apologize if I lose track of your progress,
~Iddy~
Jane,
I'm sorry I didn't get to your message yesterday to respond.
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