Gosh...I just drove by his house
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Gosh...I just drove by his house
| Tue, 01-18-2005 - 10:21pm |
Edited 2/8/2005 9:53 am ET ET by littlesoul2
Edited 2/8/2005 9:53 am ET ET by littlesoul2
| Tue, 01-18-2005 - 10:21pm |
Yes I totally agree with this,
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I was so tempted at first to really get involved in trying to figure out what xOM was up to and keep tabs on his sorry a*s. But I am so much better than that. YOU are so much better than that. How embarassed would you feel if he saw you drive by? I would feel like such a schmuck! As much as I want to know what my pretend (and that is exactly how you have to look at it) boyfriend is doing, it doesn't even matter anymore.
Keep breathing and take it one day at a time.
Good luck!
~nuttmeg
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Edited 2/8/2005 7:05 pm ET ET by littlesoul2
Hi there,
I am going through something similar myself (see my post - "should I email xOM?)I am heartbroken about it but know that NC is for the best. I am so very conflicted right now. One moment I am crying over what I've done to DH (he doesn't know) and proclaiming my love for him. The next minute I am fantasizing about OM and being out on my own. My head tells me that it is silly - I have only had "fun" times with OM and didn't even have a real relationship. Not to mention that it wouldn't work anyway - how could he ever trust me? (he is single) But my heart tells me he is Mr. Perfect" and my soulmate. There is another part of me that wishes I never even met him. I agree with the advice that people have given you and I am going to take it myself.
I have a question: Does DH know about your OM? ANd if you don't mind me asking, what were the circumstances of your A?
Good luck to you! :)
kat
((HUGS))
Edited 2/8/2005 7:05 pm ET ET by littlesoul2
I hadn't seen you on here for awhile! How are you doing? Sounds like you are getting really strong. I think you might be easing on into that bitter/ pis*ed off stage. I like this one the best!!!! I also think about the same things, wondering "where the hell did my self respect go?" and "he should have been begging ME for those booty calls" What silly little women we were!! But not anymore! I often wonder if he is sitting there wondering where the hell i went. I'm sure he thought I would be running to him forever. And on some level I guess I thought the same thing. But life keeps happening and you grow and become smarter every day and thats what i'm doing now.
Instead of hoping you can run INTO him why not try hoping you will run OVER him? LOL
Stay strong chicky! I wish you the best.
I'm always loitering around here if you ever want to vent some more.
~nuttmeg