Grief, from a surprising source.
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Grief, from a surprising source.
| Wed, 12-15-2010 - 1:12am |
I have been at a cabin in the woods with a dear friend of mine for the last few days.
| Wed, 12-15-2010 - 1:12am |
I have been at a cabin in the woods with a dear friend of mine for the last few days.
((ILE))
I can totally relate. It happened to me about 6 weeks out. I never cried over losing Xmm, but I did have a breakdown similar to yours over my own actions and behavior. It was very a cathartic experience and like you said, the feelings of guilt and sadness hit me very hard. The good news is that you are now in a good position to start forgiving yourself, which will lead to letting go of many self destructive feelings and emotions. As we always say here, ending is a process, and one that cannot be rushed.
You are getting back in touch with your authentic self which can be a very rewarding experience.
((Hugs))
This is just another wonderful step in the healing process.
I know how you feel. Don't let this one mistake make you feel un-redeemable. Use this as a catalyst to live a better, more honest life. You can't change your past but you can change your future. I can not understand who that woman was (ME) when I was in the A. It's scary to think that I could do the things I did and that I am was capable of doing those wicked things. I have vowed to never sink that low again. Each day I am thankful for being true and honest.