Had a break down last nite Help
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Had a break down last nite Help
| Wed, 10-27-2004 - 10:04am |
Last week I received an e-mail from him, He attached his Pic to it. Said he just wanted to share it with me. I had mixed emotions about seeing him I felt angry he would do that to me because he knew how I felt about walking away from the A. I have not stopped thinking about him since and last nite I just could not help but to miss him so much that I began to cry like a sobbing baby. I feel really down today, I have not been able to take that image or him out of mind and it is really hurting. H has notice I have been down and asked me what was going on with me. Had to lie and I hate that. Told him I have been thinking of my father alot these days, Which I have as well. For those who do not know my father passed away beginning of this year.
When does the hurt go away. I do not want to contact him and tell him anything because that would be breaking the rules which I have managed to keep up with. ADVICE RIGHT ABOUT KNOW WOULD BE APPRECIATED.
Thank You.......

Emotion
How ironic, I was just reading your post. Thank You I do the same I call hubby when I get the urge to contact OM. H and I have become very close again he never found out about my A, Thank God. He is such a good person and I feel gulty for what I have done.
I was a receptionist for years and OM would call me at work everyday so I know how it feels not to be able to control the incoming calls. Hang in there as well . I guess our days are bound to get better.
Thank you so much
Ladybug
It's the first time I've "seen" him since restarting our NC three weeks ago. It just clutches my stomach and makes my pulse race, and then I feel stupid for reacting so strongly.
Why do I miss him so much?! He doesn't want me around, he made that very clear. I just hate this heartache.
I'm going to IM my hubby now. Thanks for sharing your post. I really appreciate this board and hearing that I'm not alone in this.
stay strong dont contact him.
i know that it is hard but it becomes even harder if you do contact him. it takes you back to square one.
i broke down and contacted him and for what. i realize what i knew before. in the end he really didnt care for me and he is not my friend. that has been the hardest part to accept.
ill be seeing him on saturday. they are giving his fianse another party and i was invited.
how are things with your h? i dont feel anything for mine. i cant get back the feeling. a part of me wants to be alone, but i stay for my children.
my h is a wonderful person. but im soo hooked on this fool that i cant see what i have in front of me. i try but i dont find the feelings.
write back and tell me how you are dealing with your feelings with h?
thanks
upsidedown
I am so glad to hear from you, I was looking for you a couple of weeks ago and you never responded. I have been worried about you. I am so sorry this person has hurt you this way. It really stinks that men can get us to this point. Specially those who are not worth it.
My H and I are doing good, we have been spending alot of time together which we were lacking because of his schedule, things with him seem to be coming back to normal and so are my feelings for him too.
I am sorry you feel this way with H. Maybe time apart with you and hubby can determine what your feelings are for him. The children will hurt but they will adjust They can feel when things are not right at home too, mine did when hubby and I where going thru termoil, we were going to separate and we talked to the girls about it and they cried but told dad they were staying with me and hoped we could fix things.
You need to take care of you and find your happiness in life. Remember that when children get to a certain age they move on. Dont wait that long to determine your happiness in life.
I know that is easier said than done.
As far as OM, Stay away from him, he is nothing but poison for you and yu cant let him enjoy what he has done to you, show him even if it kills you that he also meant nothing and that you have decided to move on......
The reason why OM sent me his PIC was because he wanted me to know he started playing sports again. He was injured and had stopped for a while and that was the one thing he truly enjoyed and I always encouraged him to go back once he was recovered.
Take Care
Keep in touch, good luck on Saturday.....
I never thought that I could become so emotionally attached to someone else. Heartache is horrible at times, I am going on my seventh week and I really thought that by now These feelings would subside, boy was I wrong. I read some of these post and I see it takes some of us years to move on, I dont want to feel like this that long. Seeing his pic has really set me back, I am trying hard and fighting hard, someone told me that is his way of trying to stay in tune with me, I dont know what to beleive anymore.
Thank You for your support, I am here for you if needed. Hang in there.
Take Care
Ladybug
Well I have a hard time being angry with him, someone told me that is his way of staying in tune with me, I guess my silence to him says alot. I hope I can get passed this week, Seeing him set me back quite a bit and I am just struggling and fighting to keep up the strength , what little I seem to have today.
You hang in there, There is light at the end of the tunnel, I am sure we will get to see it someday.
Thank You for your support,
Take Care
Ladybug