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Had a rough day help!
| Thu, 09-30-2004 - 8:34pm |
I thought and thought about him all day. I went to pick up the phone today twice and was able to just hang up. 17 days today. I feel tired of feeling this way. WHEN DOES THE HURT STOP. I am feeling soooo down tonite and I feel I just cant shake it. I have snapped at my H today a couple of times for no reason, I feel so bad that this person has had such a hold on me. I am sitting here listening to Alicia Keyes and Ushers New song. Am in tears right now...
Good nite guys I am just going to go to bed hopefully this feeling will be gone tommorrow.

I am so sorry you are so down! I wish I could say somethigng helpful but I all I can say is that I an there with you.. I am tired of planning my days out to the point of exhaustion to try and not think about MM. It has to lift..it just has to!
Give yourself on solid pat on the back for putting that phone down, that is an accomplishment, your personal power is returning even if you do not feel like it today.
Your going to suffer from withdrawl but if you keep NC it will get better but it does take time and no two cases or people are the same so it will take what it takes just hang in there and know it will get better.
Free
This board is truly a god sent for me. First thing I did when I got home from the gym this morning is check my e-mails thinking maybe just maybe. Heard from everyone EXCEPT THE PERSON I WAS HOPING (OM). God I truly miss him. How could this be after 18 days I feel I am hitting rock bottom, I have been stronger, I dont get it. Anyway thank you so much. I am looking forward to the weekend . Hope you guys have a wonderful weekend I will keep in touch and read the posts over the weekend.
Take Care...
Lady Bug