happy birthday....fresh start

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happy birthday....fresh start
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Sun, 04-24-2005 - 12:32pm

As if turning thirty isn't a time for mulling over your life anyway, now here i am with mm.

Today i turn 30, and mm will be moving 1000 miles away in about six weeks.

We have argued so much, and he's cried over leaving, and i've cried, and things have been weird. Just Friday i threatened nc. He's too possesive of me. But his sadness rarely comes out in tears, it comes out in anger and nit-picking me. (men!). i can see how upset he is. i have come a long way in accepting, a long way. So things have been rocky.

We spent a great time together for my birthday. It was wonderful, a nice little closure for our R since even though he'll still be around a few more weeks i have no doubt he'll be travelling back and forth alot and very busy.

But i have accepted the big "3-o" and i have accepted his leaving, and i let him off of the hook about it a little more each day LOL...thirty isn't a bad thing. Nor is him gonig. It's destiny's way of telling me it's time to think about what i need and going to get it. Letting go of one love and one chapter in my life to let in the next. Except now i have had ten years to learn from.

to the next chapter of love and my life...mr right (and single) here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks for listening :)
jen

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Sun, 04-24-2005 - 2:12pm

happy bday Jen !!!

dont worry life begins at 40 :)

max
39 and holding on

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Registered: 03-27-2003
Sun, 04-24-2005 - 3:10pm

Happy Birthday Jen!!!

You're right, time for a new chapter.

I'm right there with you. Only i'm turning thirty-ten this year.

(High fiving Max)

I feel a new chapter is coming for me as well..and getting xMM out of my life will help me to do it.

Hugs to you Jen!