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| Mon, 02-15-2010 - 11:39am |
but I am back at day 1 NC.
I am going to skip the confessional aspect of this post, if that's okay.
| Mon, 02-15-2010 - 11:39am |
but I am back at day 1 NC.
I am going to skip the confessional aspect of this post, if that's okay.
Dear Jodi,
Isn't it strange how 'easy' it is to slip back into friendlier behavior towards the xAP? We have to be on guard at all times.
You wrote: "Just as I was moving on of course. Just as I could get through a whole day without tears. "
It's always like that. You start to feel stronger, your guard lowers a little, little bit and then before you know it, things go downhill again. And that's what exhausting too: you have to be on guard 24/7.
I hate it when the coldness (the strength!) starts to fade a little to the background.
Will you be able to go back to LC the way you did it before?
Hugs,
HTGO
Jodi
~hugs, hugs and more hugs~
Remember this, when you fall down, you get back up again and start walking.
NC since 2/4/2010