Haunted by what he was to me

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Registered: 12-01-2010
Haunted by what he was to me
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Wed, 12-08-2010 - 1:06pm

Day 3 - tough tough. Lots of tears this morning and had to finally turn the damn radio off on my way to work. Music is such a trigger for me.We were connected deeply with music of many genres and one of the things I loved about him was his knowledge of rock/pop/alternative rock music history in the past several decades and we had banter and discussion that could go on for hours and hours. I so admired that in him among many other talents he had.

I'm single and am free to date. I have tried to date others since the A began about a year ago and I always told him when I had a date. He was always interested in who and how it went and if I will see them again and wanted to deflect me from them if possible. As it turned out, as hard as I tried to replace him, I never met anyone else close to being what I wanted and now wonder if I will ever meet someone who is as well matched to me as he.

Maybe this is doubly hard

Love, Sunshine Dedicated to living my new life with integrity, truth and positive thoughts! I am worthy of true love and definitely worth the wait!

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Registered: 12-01-2010
Wed, 12-08-2010 - 10:38pm
Man, you're good! :) You should be a group counselor or something. What you say makes total sense to me. Tonight I spent time with my little girl and focused on her and her needs (I don't have her all the time and I missed her) and then after she went to bed, I focused on me and what I want to do with my evening. Good night!
Love, Sunshine Dedicated to living my new life with integrity, truth and positive thoughts! I am worthy of true love and definitely worth the wait!
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Registered: 07-24-2005
Wed, 12-08-2010 - 11:36pm

Yes, Sunshine...we ARE listening and I don't think the responses were harsh.


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Registered: 07-24-2005
Wed, 12-08-2010 - 11:37pm
And also, we are not bad people, just people who were behaving badly ;)

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Registered: 08-25-2010
Wed, 12-08-2010 - 11:59pm

I haven't read through all the responses yet (don't want to change my thoughts and I know there is likely to be some BS callout on some of what you said), so please forgive me if I repeat.

First - Hugs to you.

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