HAVE TO DO THIS!! 5 years WASTED

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Registered: 07-09-2003
HAVE TO DO THIS!! 5 years WASTED
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Mon, 01-24-2005 - 3:08pm
Here I am again, I lurk here daily, bye the hour looking for some majical post that will give me the strength to walk away, it has been almost 5 years. I left my husband, tore apart my family in hopes this man was all he "SEEMED" to be. And everytime I realize he is never leaving his wife and he is full of BS and walk away he seems to suck me back in. Well once again he called today, offering me one more chance, yup can you believe it, he will give me another chance if I am nice. It took everything in me, you would think hec no would be easy but it took everything in me to say no, and I did. I told him NO. I mean who can resist that plea...yeah! SO he said fine I will respect you. I have not heard from him since, he is a stubborn hispanic man FULL of hispanic PRIDE. So stubborn, it is always my fault. I have loved this man for years and the funny thing is, he chased me for 4 years before I was so desperately unhappy in my marriage I gave in. NOW he acts like he is doing me a favor. How does this happen, how do they get so confident? How can they treat us like this how can it have no affect on his day. I mean this tears me up, I am CONSUMED by it and he just goes on as if nothing has happened, how do they do that? I need him not to contact me but I kow it will rip my heart out that he does not. But when he does I have nothing but anger and bitterness for him, I hate him for acrting like someone he wasnt to get me HOOKED. How do I get unhooked? This is an addiction! So bad for me yet I NEED it to survive. How do you do it?

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Registered: 07-09-2003
Mon, 01-24-2005 - 7:37pm
Thank you, I willfor sure once I get doctors approval start to excercise. My health has suffered because of all the stress over the years. I have 2 kids and I am focusing on them, coaching their sports being as involved with their life as I can. Making up for all the years I have been living in space obsewssing where is he why didnt he call snapping at my poor kids because he did not call. They deserve a mom that is there COMPLETELY and that is my goal as of now.
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Registered: 12-05-2004
Mon, 01-24-2005 - 7:49pm

Amen sister!!!

Take care of those babies AND yourself!!! All three of you deserve better than what you've been getting!!!

Hugs to you and your little ones!

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Registered: 12-16-2004
Mon, 01-24-2005 - 8:35pm

Oh Cal, I *do* love ya (in a pure, safe, friends in front of my husband kinda way)!

Strength & peace,
Posie

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