Having a rough day
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Having a rough day
| Wed, 03-31-2004 - 8:28am |
There is no one thing that is causing me to be so weepy today. In my mind I can see XMM's face so vividly. I feel like I'm about to have an emotional break down. Every since my co-worker told me he saw XMM, I've been going down hill.
It seems that I'm trying to fix all the things that were wrong in my life at one time. I really felt like I relied on alcohol to much. I'm very proud of myself in that I've not had a drink of alcohol in a couple of weeks. But today, I want alcohol so bad. I need to be strong and continue on my path of not drinking.
I just want to get in my car, and just drive, and drive, and drive.

Yes, yes, yes. I posted earlier this morning about my personal downward spiral. I suddenly want to know what OMM is doing these days. Maybe just to make sure he's still thinking about me? I don't know. Hang in there. I can also relate to getting in the car, with the radio playing some good tunes, lighting up some cigarettes, and driving, driving, driving, with no particular destination. Its another escape.
Fortunately, I've got alot of work to do today. I say fortunately because I'm the type of person who, if I have too much time on my hands, I could easily find myself causing chaos or dwelling on the negative. Here's some positive vibes comin' your way, honey. Stay strong on all fronts! With love!