I hope you have faught the urge to contact Xmm. You are jonsing for a fix, which is understandable, but it will solve absolutely nothing. It will just end up hurting you and I know that YOUR rational mind already knows this. We get those cravings, but we have to fight them with all that we've got. Whenever your junking mind takes over, remember the 48 hour rule. (It's in the Healing Library).
As far as reconnecting with your H, that needs to be put on the back burner for a while. First you have to get your mind/heart in a better place and this
Iddy is right - you can't take care of everything at once. Right now, you are fighting the raw feelings of beginning your real life. Just accept things as they are right now - without judgment. Cry when you need to cry. Accept that the universe has a plan for you and you are just along for the ride. Does this mean your life will always be the way it is now? Heck no! Every day will be different and you will continue to grow and see things in a very different light.
Hi Cait
I see you are newly NC this week and I gather you are married.
Hi cait,
Good things will come into your life again, they already have.
Cait,
I hope you have faught the urge to contact Xmm. You are jonsing for a fix, which is understandable, but it will solve absolutely nothing. It will just end up hurting you and I know that YOUR rational mind already knows this. We get those cravings, but we have to fight them with all that we've got. Whenever your junking mind takes over, remember the 48 hour rule. (It's in the Healing Library).
As far as reconnecting with your H, that needs to be put on the back burner for a while. First you have to get your mind/heart in a better place and this
Cait-
Iddy is right - you can't take care of everything at once. Right now, you are fighting the raw feelings of beginning your real life. Just accept things as they are right now - without judgment. Cry when you need to cry. Accept that the universe has a plan for you and you are just along for the ride. Does this mean your life will always be the way it is now? Heck no! Every day will be different and you will continue to grow and see things in a very different light.
Bodhi