He really is my friend
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| Fri, 06-04-2004 - 12:26pm |
A little bit of background (doesn't really do justice to the whole situation): We were friends, we had sex once, I got pregnant, I terminated the pregnancy (with both of us in agreement), I got mad at him because I felt like he wasn't supporting me and was glossing over the whole situation, I called him names on his VM, and then he didn't call me back for 9 days until I initiated contact this past Sunday.
When I called him, he admitted he hadn't called me back, maybe a little bit because of his pride, but also because he really just didn't know what to do and he thought he would just keep saying the wrong things. I was hesistant to trust him again but I really needed him so I decided to give him a chance. I wrote out in a letter exactly what I needed and he called me and said, "Absolutely, I can do this" Well, he kept his word and he has been absolutely great this week.
This A is over. There is nothing like a pregnancy to snap you right out of fantasy island. My responsibilites, to myself, to him, to his family, all became very clear.
It is weird to have to lean on him so much right now. I couldn't tell a single soul (except this board) about my situation and I was suffocating in isolation with it. Now I know he is on my side and can help me if I can just ask for it. Until I get a little distance from all this and get back on my feet, I'm not really sure what to think about the future of our relationship. What is healthy, what is right, what is wrong. I just want a litte bit of calm right now. This is the calm after the storm, not the calm before the storm. I can rest in that and be OK. I know more is to come and soon I will be back to my feisty self and say, "Bring it on."
I appreciate all the support and kind words of everyone. I don't know if I would have made it through the last month without this board. It's amazing how powerful kind words can be when you are suffering.
"Life ultimately means taking responsibility to find the right answer to its problems and to fulfill the tasks which it constantly sets for us."
Peace and Hugs,
Real
Edited 6/4/2004 12:34 pm ET ET by realsign
| Fri, 06-04-2004 - 1:15pm |
| Fri, 06-04-2004 - 1:26pm |
