He is so selfish and self centered!!!!!
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| Sun, 03-21-2010 - 5:14pm |
I need to get this crap off of my chest and need your straight forward approach here at EAS.
XMM and I are LC and I keep my interactions with him very basic. He knew from during our A that my 9yr old son has a bone disease. My son had surgery this week on that bone and XMM wanted to know how the surgery went and asked me to text him to let him know, which I felt was harmless since many people asked me to text them when the surgery was over. Well, as you veterans know, one text opened the door and we texted off and on during my sons stay at the hospital. At one point XMM got a little "put off" becasue I didnt text him right back. Sorry there Cowboy, I was speaking with the DR. Heaven forbid there was a lull between my texts but he could always wait hours. Should have seen the double standard writing on the wall earlier on.
Anyway my son got to come home today and XMM texted me to see what I was up to. I said not to much and asked how he was. He said his daughter is "really, really sick with mono, and might have to get admitted" and how he is so worried about her. Not once did he ask about my kid so I told him that I know how he feels, must suck for him and thats too bad, try watching your 9 yr old learn to use a walker and a wheel chair. Pretty much after that he texted back "I get the point, talk to you later."
What a self centered a$$hole. Im so angry that I cant see straight. The world completely stops when his daughter who he spoils and bubble wraps gets sick but my son who has yet to complain about being different than his friends is an afterthought.
So now I had to come here because I have already been passivly aggressive towards my H today becasue of this. Im stressed anyway over my sons health and now even more so becasue XMM got to me. I allowed it to happen, I gave him the control when I texted him like I did. I let him get closer than needed, I was so good at keeping him at arms length with also an "I could care less attitude" towards him. Then when Im down and he should some intrest, I fed right into it, only to be shown once more that my world isnt as important as his.
I also cant help but remember what I read here on EAS some time ago when I started to read and lurk to get the strength to end my A. I read that we mirror eachothers insecurities in an A. Im thinking that

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Hi GMLB,
Wanted to send my support and prayers to you for your son’s recovery from surgery. I hope you are getting the rest you need too. Sounds like you are getting great support from your DH. I also hope the messages you received from xAP will help clear the fog and give you the resolve to block and walk once and for all. You are drawing strength from DH who is really there for you and who has genuine concern for both you and your son.
Much love and big hugs,
E1
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