To heck with him

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Registered: 11-09-2004
To heck with him
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Sun, 12-19-2004 - 4:26pm

Queen of all mood swings today, so be forewarned before reading.

I guess this is part of the process, too, but I am just sick of all of this, and I am washing my hands of him! I have been such an idiot, worrying about hurting him, of making the wrong choice, that maybe he was "the one I was meant to be with" and that I was blowing this chance at happiness. What bull@#$%.

Where is my integrity? Where's my backbone? What happened to common sense? One of my news editors used to say, "Don't get so caught up in the words that you forget you're reading a book." I used to tell her that made no sense, but what she was saying was a modified version of "look at the big picture," or "sometimes you can't see the forest for the trees."

So here's the book. He knew I was married. He pursued me anyway. He may say now that he is a man of integrity, but he was stalking my marriage and I almost destroyed my family to be with him. So what do I owe him? Not a darn thing. Those little moments strung together that had me so enraptured, so torn up, they were just moments. This is the story of my life. I can't let him determine how it ends.

So as of today, God help me, this book is CLOSED.

Let's hope I feel the same tomorrow. ;-)
Newsgal
P.S. Yes, something happened. He brought that girl to church...but not openly. Tried to sneak in with her and sneak out. Made me see how ridiculous he can be. And how disrespectful, to act as though he had to hide something from me. God knows, I would have been much happier if he had held her hand or laid a big one on her right in front of me. It is over, so why in the heck does he have to sneak? This is over. Done. My family deserves better of me than to worry about this weasel.

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Sun, 12-19-2004 - 8:16pm

Gal

Actions speak louder then words, what have his actions been saying all along.

You said in another post that you have a good male friend that would say nice things such as your husband was lucky to have you, he boosted your ego with but still pointed you toward your marriage while doing it, XMWEASEL boosted your ego but did so in a mannor that turned your attention toward him as the source of your gratification, the first mans actions say he is a friend XMWEASELS actions say that he is a manipulator and a marriage predator flattering you for his own gain.

His wife may be the woman that she is for a reason !!

When a person tells you who they are believe them the first time.

The book is closed if you decide it is and no one else can open it again but you.

JMHO

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Registered: 10-05-2004
Mon, 12-20-2004 - 10:32am

Newsgal -

I needed this thread today. I am feeling the exact same way!! Thanks for sharing. Your strength is inspiring!

Diva