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|Wed, 07-30-2014 - 6:40pm|
I really dont know why I am posting here, I think I just want to get my pain out in words. I ended a ten year affair yesterday with a man I was so in love with and would do anything for. This man up until last week promised me the world. I was completely blindsided as I felt that this was my soulmate. He promised me over and over again that he was going to leave his marriage at the end of this year. This man told me his wife and him grew apart. During the ten year relationship we had our ups and downs and there were times where we ended but always got back together. However, during this last year I was led to believe that he was seriously ready to leave and only to be let down yesterday by this man telling me that he still has an emotional attachment to his wife. This man attempted to explain himself to me last night and today and I have repeatedly told him to please not contact me. I told him I can no longer deal with the rollercoaster ride and that I am truly done this time. I am single and have wasted a decade of time on something that has not gone anywhere. I feel like a fool. I have cried off and on and I have finally realized that I need to move on if I want to be truly happy with someone. I deserve happiness in my life with a man who wants to give me attention and love and not when its convenient for him. I dont want to begin to even try to figure out what happened and why he could change and do a compelete 180 in a matter of week. I believe it has always been this way, I just feel I was too bilnd to see it or wanted to believe what he was telling me. I am just hoping to move on with as little pain as possible. I dont feel I need to see a counselor or therapist as I have been there and done that throughout the years. Any advice from anyone out there, especially the single women going through this? How long did it take you to move on after your affair/ When does the pain and crying end?