What have you been doing during the ages you've been away. I'm digging deep into the recesses of my memory bank. Did you move? Had concerns about your new home, but trying to make the best of it and it was turning out okay?
Help me out here
Good to see you back on here. Fill us in on how you are and what you've been up to!
Wow what a great memory Clarity!
OK so where am I these days? Yes I moved house last year and managed to turn into the worst experience in my life- I did this totally in my own head and it had nothing to do with reality. The house is 3mins from our old one (across a main road) and is bigger and has a pool (you need it here!). It needed work and we have done that- painted, new floors, removed all the gravel (the whole front and back yard was red gravel), made gardens, planted lawns.... the works.
I have been a lot happier with it and the kids and DH love it. Im still not convinced and miss not having a view and I feel a bit closed in here. I have been a lot better though but just in this past 2 weeks Ive managed to lose my balance again.... so here I am.... back to iVillage to reconnect and have some wise souls tell me to pull my head in
Ive had a terrible 6mths at work - very stressful- so I think that plus some unhealthy eating and lack of exercise, lost faith, less time with family.... have all blown up and Ive had a full blown depressive attack this past 2 weeks.
I dont self-medicate my stress etc with the AP anymore so I think that has contributed. Im taking medication for my depression and obsessive thinking, but I am also trying to tackle it a bit more holistically- better physical health, meditation, better self-talk, mindfulness, connection etc.
As far as my exAP - all in the past. I still have my moments and we actually ran into each other late last year. It was wierd and sad, I felt the rejection and frustration al over again. And the pain! But I am much more accepting of it all - much better at seeing that he was an unhealthy distractiion and the feeelings I thought were so real were never real at all.
So how are you all???
OMG...I just noticed your pic...a Plumeria! right?
I recently used one for my pic here too, but in an attempt to switch to another pic, which wouldn't work, I lost my plumeria and can't seem to get it back Our TopKAT had given it to me.
I can't believe I remembered either! I guess it's my short-term memory that is affected these days...age will do that to a gal.
Sounds like you made your new, scary-at-first house a lovely home. And a pool! Now what's that address?
Seems like you made some major healthy changes...excellent. I'm sure you'll start to feel better in no time.
I'm sorry running into your xaffair partner brought back painful feelings. The sources of pain (and happiness) become ingrained...and for good reason.
I'm doing well. MH retired a couple of years ago and life is peaceful and quiet. I get to be a Nana vicariously through MH...and NanaClarity doesn't sound too bad vs. grandma...oy
I'm thrilled you dropped by...stick around...we've missed you.
Iggy!!!! Yay!! I missed you! I thought you had been abducted by aliens or maybe that you had had a fall and developed amnesia. I'm so glad to know you were just living life and actually enjoying it (or at least parts of it). I'm sorry that stress has brought you back here, but I'm glad to see you your cyber face again!