Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
Big hugs to you Confused, and congratulations on making that life changing decision of going NC. This is the best decision you could've made, that and well not getting physical with him. He was looking for an ego stroke and hoping that you'd be the one to give it to him, but boy was he wrong. You should be very proud of yourself for taking that first step in taking your life back.
Please come here and post and let us know how your doing and please know that when things get rough, when the urges overcome you, come here, reach out and someone will help you..we're all here for you Confused. Take care and take each day one step at a time..
Your story sounds similar to mine. How did you break free? I feel like such an addict. I've been crying.
What I can't understand or accept, is if this was all about sex?
It would seem so. Yet I want to think that he did love me, but I was actually sacred at one point when we were kissing. I remember thinking, "this is my friend, he wouldn't force me".
He didn't force me but the pressure was intense. It could be my lack of experience.
Now I feel ugly, as if something was wrong why he chose to ignore it over the past 2 weeks.
I can't seem to get past that and it distresses me so.
My xAP also pulled back in a very cruel way when I started to deny him the sex. I need to let it go, all of it. But that's so hard. But we will make it.
Hi Brighterdays, Thank you so much for your kind message. I am not showing much strength or perseverance at all, but I am trying the best I can. I think it's best when I try to avoid his eyes at all cost. It sucks.
Hugs Htgo
p.s. 7 months already!!!!! that's so good of you!!!
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Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
Welcome to the Board.
I'm really sorry but I must speak about what you wrote.
Don't beat yourself up.
Big hugs to you Confused, and congratulations on making that life changing decision of going NC. This is the best decision you could've made, that and well not getting physical with him. He was looking for an ego stroke and hoping that you'd be the one to give it to him, but boy was he wrong. You should be very proud of yourself for taking that first step in taking your life back.
Please come here and post and let us know how your doing and please know that when things get rough, when the urges overcome you, come here, reach out and someone will help you..we're all here for you Confused. Take care and take each day one step at a time..
WAM
Hi,
Your story sounds similar to mine. How did you break free? I feel like such an addict. I've been crying.
What I can't understand or accept, is if this was all about sex?
It would seem so. Yet I want to think that he did love me, but I was actually sacred at one point when we were kissing. I remember thinking, "this is my friend, he wouldn't force me".
He didn't force me but the pressure was intense. It could be my lack of experience.
Now I feel ugly, as if something was wrong why he chose to ignore it over the past 2 weeks.
I can't seem to get past that and it distresses me so.
Dear Confused -
There are so many reasons why he may be pulling away, but the real truth,, and one of the keys to healing, is
My xAP also pulled back in a very cruel way when I started to deny him the sex. I need to let it go, all of it. But that's so hard.
But we will make it.
Hugs
htgo
Hi HTGO -
Just wanted say hello and that I really admire the strength and perseverance that it would take to do this when you have to see
Hi Brighterdays,
Thank you so much for your kind message. I am not showing much strength or perseverance at all, but I am trying the best I can. I think it's best when I try to avoid his eyes at all cost.
It sucks.
Hugs
Htgo
p.s. 7 months already!!!!! that's so good of you!!!
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