Help- is it over?
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|Mon, 04-21-2003 - 4:08pm|
Things with MM have been on again, off again since we last saw each other, until Feb of this year. MM and his wife split up in Jan of this year. We started talking in Jan once a week or so. HE had some pretty big changes in his life in Jan. He purchased the company he has worked for. The phone calls were just talking about his D, business, etc until late Feb. One Friday night we made plans for me to go see him the next day and spend the weekend. We talked on the phone for several hours that night, pretty steamy conversation (our first). We finally got off at 2:30 in the morning. I was supposed to call him when I got up in the morning. I called about 10:00. He didn't answer. I didn't think too much of this. He coaches girls softball, could easily have been busy. I left a message to call me when he got a chance. He never called back that day. He finally called a week later. Told me had screwed up. He was very sorry. He meant everything he had said on that Firday night. Please forgive him. I didn't call him right back so he called me again in about 15 minutes, apologized more. An apology is very unsual for him much less 2 in less than an hour. I forgave him.
We have talked every couple of days since. Some conversations just 5 minutes in the middle of the day. Some a couple of hours late at night. We made plans for me to come see him for the weekend again. This was to have been in early April. The week before he called at least twice a day. Making sure I was coming up. Planning what we were going to do. The day before he called 5 times. Always asking if I was going to make it. The last time we talked was at about midnight, he was very excited. I could hear in his voice the tension and excitement. he was supposed to call me at 3:30 the next afternoon. Of course you guessed he never called. I have not taked to him since. I tried calling the next week a couple of times. I was worried about him. He finally emailed me late in the week to tell me had been out of town, and would call me the following Monday. When he did not call by Wednesday, I left him a vm that said I did not understand what had happened, but it was pretty obvious that he was trying to get rid of me. I would like to know what had happened. He emailed me the next day. Told me I was wrong. That he was going out of town for the weekend and would call me today. I don't know that I even want to talk to him. Can there be a good explanation for him not contacting me the last 2 weeks? I am pretty sure that he was feeling insecure about this. He has made 4 or 5 comments about being able to satisfy me. I always reassured him. I am sure he is ashamed of doing this to me again. He is very arrogant, has a huge ego, and enough pride for several people. He doesn't easily admit it when he is wrong.
If he has been using me, it obviously wasn't for the sex. Maybe to boost his ego? I know his XW did a number on him in the divorce. She also cleaned out the house. He moved back into house he had to buy a bed to sleep on. Dished to eat off of, etc... He has been going out with his buddies and drinking a lot in the evening. I understand he is single for the first time in more than 20 years, but he initiated the most recent part of our relationship. he is the one who was talking about a future together. What do I do? Walk away? Force him to tell me its over? HELP
Sorry so long. I would appreciate any input.