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| Thu, 03-24-2005 - 11:29am |
i no this is were i need to be, but i can't seem to do it. you see i am not a strong person at all. i have been seeing mm for a year now, his wife and him seperated for 2 months, he would call all the time, want to see me etc. well she is back now, and i didn't hear from him in a week, then he calls and i said were have you been he said working, i said in a week time you couldn't take the time to call me. he said well by the time i get home i can't call you, i am married also. i knew this is a load of crap first of all hes get home by 4:00, and i knew he was lying because this isn't the first time he has done this to me, he has done this 2 before when they wern't getting along.
then i asked is your wife back and he said yes, that's another reason i can't call
well i was pretty upset at him i said it seems like whenever you wife is back i don't hear from you, i think a week is a long time not to talk to someone i said, what if i did this to you how would you feel? he said i wouldn't get mad. thne he said i don't feel like arguing, i will call you tommorrow, i said now i have to wait until tommorrow,he siad i will call you tonight then. well he never called!!! he he loves me like hes says that he could have made some excuse to leave and call me!! i haven't heard from him since tues.
i can;'t sleep, crying all the time, eating out of control, i feel in such pain i just want him to hurt like he has hurt me, i keep checking my cell phone to see if he is called, i no i need to end it but don't think i can, should i change my cell phone number
should i turn it off, or when he does call should i tell him i don't want to see him anymore, how do i get to him? do you think he will call again? thnks for listening

Candy
Go back and read your post , read it like it was written by a stranger what would you think ? I think you would see a woman that has had her ability to think in a logical rational way totally scrambled by what she is doing and what she is doing is destroying he a little bit more each day...THIS AFFAIR IS DESTROYING YOU you need to DECIDE it is over, belly up to the bar and take some responsibility for getting yourself into this mess and recognizre that you have the power to end it anytime you CHOOSE TO, it has nothing to do with strength it is a decision the same way it was a decision to get into this muck.
WHEN YOU HURT BADLY ENOUGH YOU WILL END IT, there is no question about it, the only question is how big a price it extracts from you, the sooner you end it the less likely that the price will be higher then you have already paid, did I understand you correctly that your married IF SO are you willing to pay for this mess with your family and reputation ???
THINK ABOUT IT THE CLOCK IS TICKING.
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