here again .... still in pain
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| Thu, 10-21-2004 - 1:26pm |
well as for the update, i attended his bridal shower. he arrived with flowers for her. he looked great of course. we talked very little of course nothing about us just normal talk. seeing him hurt me. i keept hearing his words that he honestly never liked me and that what we had was a mistake.
now i have one more hurdle... the wedding.
im still in a lot of pain but im trying to move on.
dh is trying to make things work with me. i told him i want to try too but i honestly dont feel anything for him. i dont feel anything for anyone. i would just love to be alone.
im staying here for the kids. i dont want to mess up there lives. hopefully i can get over this and move on with my life and someday be happy again.
jellybean, i know you wrote but i have not been on. i read at work but dont reply from there just in case big brother is reading.
i need the strengh to move on
i need words of encouragement. sometimes i want to give up
really lost.........
upsidedown

HI Usd
Maybe it is time for a new screen name something more forward looking.
I don't think you should be worring righ now about what you do or don't feel not until you have put this man(a designation he has not earned) out of your life completly, it would be unrealitic to think your going to be able to rediscover your emotions for your husband as long as your pinning away for the soon to be married cheater (you got to pitty that poor woman), he has got to go and you and your hubby need to get professional help to work on this your not going to do it by yourself most likely, BUT YOU CAN DO IT.
Do you remember when you first met your husband, the first date,Kiss and the good stuff, your wedding day, these events are intertwined with your love for him, when all is done with XOM get away with your hubby and your photo album and remember together.
You will make it
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