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Registered: 03-13-2004
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Sat, 04-23-2005 - 11:14am

hi all,

its been 3 weekends now since OW left, i have no more contact with her, i did try to send her email and called her but did not get any more response from her

i know in time it will get better, i know a lot of folks here are having a hard time, it is an addiction, i believe in time it will get better, i am sad and lonely but i think its part of the process

i try to go out, walk around, trying yoga also, try to reconnect with friends so i will be busy, anything that would get me busy, sure i have down times also, i still think of her all the time but i am able to sleep much better, able to concentrate at work a bit better also, although at work i get reminded of her all the time as well

worst is co workers would talk about her and i would hear some news about her thru them so i am dealing with that , its hard for me, oh well, im just saying that i think i am doing better, i dont have that big urge to call her anymore, i still have the urge, also email but i have more control now

thanks to all for all the support,

max

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Registered: 03-13-2004
In reply to: maxell_2004
Mon, 04-25-2005 - 9:06pm

to everyone here,

thanks for everything, just reading the post makes me feel better, so far they have not replaced her position, a friend just came over and told me that she saw her on the other company where she works now, this personis a sales rep so he travels and he was surprised to find out she moved to another company, sillicon valley is so small that we kind of know people all over the valley, as they say here ther is only 5 layers of separtion and people who know u know people all over

anyways , i was doing better and this guy out of nowhere told me, i was sad, too much memory for me

pls dont feel sorry , the pain is part of the affair, i take full responsibility for my part, i was living in a fantasy world and have not idea what i was getting into with the affair, the sad thing is even now when i say this words on the board, in the back of my mind i still hope that one day she will come back and everything will be all right

am i unrealistic enough or what, we probably go thru a stage like this when we hold on to hope or something, she occupies my mind everynite when i come home, work is so busy but i cannot concentrate at all

its not as painful now, i am actualy more sad now than before, i dont know why, i miss her so much , i hope this too shall pass

thanks to all who give everyone hope
max

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