His Wife Never Knew~ Why am I Mad??

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Registered: 10-28-2004
His Wife Never Knew~ Why am I Mad??
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Sun, 02-27-2005 - 3:46pm

My MM is most probably going back, after leaving his home,wife,children. I am devestated but that's another issue.

When they were together they had "sex" maybe once a month and only when he initiated it. He never messed around in their entire 11 years of marriage. He just learned to do without.

Well, we spent MANY MANY days and nights together. We were out in public many times. His family knew. He physically LEFT their home.

What blows my mind is that SHE NEVER KNEW HE WAS HAVING AN A!!!!!! She asked him if there was someone else and he told her he was moving on. We live in a SMALL town. Besides that, what intelligent woman would not KNOW that her husband was having an affair??

He is going back. Their lives will be nice and comfy again. Yes, it pisses me off because I lost him. I guess he couldn't stand the interim of being our of his comfort zone. He wasn't happy there for a few years now, I know this from him and his friends. But now, their lives are back to "perfect" and I am alone in the cold and feeling like I want to die.

It just doesn't seem fair that he got to have me and take all that I had to give, and then just go back home, like nothing ever happened. I doubt he even misses me, at least not like I miss him. I gave my "all"! I am mad and sad and angry and lonely all at the same time.

I just wish that she knew about me sometimes.

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Registered: 02-22-2005
Sun, 02-27-2005 - 3:59pm

Wow, we could really be twins here. Except she found out about me by diggin in his email and found 39 emails we had written each other. Some describing details of our inimate moments. She left and now he wants her back and sometimes I think she will go back if he keeps trying but other times I don't know.

I have felt exactly how you feel. Word for word. Mad, mad as hell. I was the one who told her about the other women, I told her she was a fool if she went back b/c there were more women than me. She freaked, of course. Now I'm pretty sure he hates me and I am learning to not care.

Hang on, it'll get better. I hated the bitter stage but it goes away. I gave him my all and then some. I was everything for him and he even told me how he could never live with out my strength. Oh well, hope he's eating to have strength now.

Robin

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Registered: 10-28-2004
Sun, 02-27-2005 - 4:04pm

I hope the day comes that he sees me somewhere and kicks himself for "dumping" me. I feel like I have a LOT to offer a man, but I'll be damned if I do it again soon. Needless to say, no more MM.....ever!!!

I hope that I look hotter than hell when we see each other again, but with my luck, I'll run into him after being at the gym. Ha Ha!!!!

I just think he "got off" too easy on this one!

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Registered: 02-22-2005
Sun, 02-27-2005 - 4:13pm

Amen, you are preaching to the choir. I make it a point of looking my best when I'm out. When I go walking, gym, work, shopping, wherever. The best part is that I hope I catch someone else's eyes in the process.

Someday, maybe even already they are kicking themselves. My MM will never tell anyone that he made a mistake leaving me, never, too proud. But someday........

LilRocket