Honesty-Talked to Ex ap ...........feel ok though.

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Registered: 10-17-2010
Honesty-Talked to Ex ap ...........feel ok though.
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Tue, 11-23-2010 - 10:54am

Last night I decided to Im ex-ap while I knew he was offline

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Registered: 11-22-2009

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Got nothing for you, R, except your lying, junky mind got the best of you.......so, onto T session #3. Looks like this is going to be a very long road for you.

:smileysad:

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 04-20-2009

I've got nothin'.

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Registered: 07-24-2005

Let's see...reasons you opened the door.


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Registered: 04-01-2010

Renewal,

I'm not a vet but wanted to chime in anyway. Couldn't resist "going there" again, huh? I'm calling BS on the old gentleman thing because there probably

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 11-22-2009

R~

Something else just came to mind as I was finishing up some work here. It's also possible that when things start getting better for you, there is a negative tape playing in head that thinks you are not worthy of "better," therefore you subconsciously sabotage yourself.

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 09-28-2010

"He acts like we never had a break up or huge fight.

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Registered: 10-17-2010

If I was afraid TU I surely wouldnt have owned up to contacting him.

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Registered: 10-16-2010

Renewal. I have to admit, I could only read thru a few sentences of your post because it upset me becasue I have done this too and i remember how I felt afterwards.

It upset me becasue I remembered doing the same damn thing MANY times.Of course I was alone and not here on the boards with others trying to for NC, but still it upsets me.

I feel ashamed because when I got re-involved, the x AP hadn't changed at all, even tho I HAD! And I had already known that, so why did I need to suffer more with my JAM?

Your therapy success MAYBE made you do this, but remember, with any addiction, there are far more triggers than we can ever cope with alone..

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Registered: 10-17-2010

Thanks Melinda.

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-28-2010

Don't not be afraid ((hugs))

You have been to the darkest places of your life - the fear inside the affair is literally that of losing one's life right in front of your very own eyes. Getting into therapy and finding out why, is just the opposite - it is like watching yourself be born; only this time you get to raise yourself.

Much love & care,

TU.

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