Hope everyone is having a good weekend

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Hope everyone is having a good weekend
Sat, 03-29-2003 - 9:05pm
I have found a sense of calm within myself over this since my "mania" of this past wek. I thought I was doing so well up to that point but have realized I was just suppressing everything and trying to stay strong. Well needless to say I let it all out. I am finally realizing that he made his choice and it is not my worry or my concern and he is not worth me living in a negative mind set everyday. His probelms and his unhappiness are not MY PROBLEMS! They are his choice and he chose to try and work them out with HIS FAMILY. All the love and promises in the world do not matter, he has his reasons and I can not try and figure them out. I am my problem. I am my concern. I am my worry. I want to be happy and I want to be a better person both mentally and spiritually. I accept my mistakes and will never duplicate them. I have peace within myself. I feel no anger towards him and his W. (I wish she felt the same way!) ANyway - I am happy with this inner calm and I am doing all in my power to move life forward and I want to thank everyone for being here. I would not of made it this far without you lovely ladies here supporting me when I had no one else to turn to. Hope everyone is healthy and happy today. Lot of love - and my prayers and thoughts are with all of you this evening.