hope this passes fast

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Registered: 03-27-2003
hope this passes fast
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Sat, 04-09-2005 - 11:53am
This is the first time I've ever felt so sure MM and I are over with no more hopes or wants for more. I celebrate that and at the same time am feeling incredible sadness for not having done this sooner. I am feeling down and irritable..and it's carrying over to my dh..I'm arguing with him for stupid things this weekend already..and I don't want that to happen. I just want this chapter of my life gone and done..and I don't want this feeling of miserableness to linger..It is no longer misery over "losing someone"..just misery over having put time and effort into someone I shouldn't have..and its' starting to make me feel depressed.
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Registered: 03-13-2004
Sat, 04-09-2005 - 12:36pm

hi lea,

misery , i am miserable, so much that i am paralyzed here at home, i am not able to get up and do something anymore

focus on your H, u have someone there which is good, i dont know what to say to u but only to thank u for reading and replying to my post, i am not in a very good emotional state right now

i just keep reading the post here and looking at OW pic and crying, it so childish, why am i like this

max

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Registered: 03-29-2005
Sat, 04-09-2005 - 3:17pm

I'm going through the same thing that you are right now. I have made up my mind to end my A. I don't have ant desire to resume any kind of relationship with OM, not even a friendship. I have been through the sadness phase, and now just find myself completely irritable, angry and depressed. I ahate taking my aggression out on others who don't really deserve it. I wish I had given it to OM instead when he was treating badly!

I'm so ready to move on and start over, but I feel the aggression is holding me back. I made an appointment with a new T to try and work on me. Just me. Not ready for MC yet. I have to work through this myself first, then I will be able to really concentrate on my M and family. This T does hpnotherapy as well as talk therapy. Hope it works!

Despr8

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Registered: 03-27-2003
Sat, 04-09-2005 - 3:18pm
Well Max, you're actually bringing me out of MY depressed state, because I'm finding myself telling you how wonderful life is, and how we can't let someone keep us from enjoying it..and its true. Use today if you need to, to cry etc. but don't let it stop you from thinking about tomorrow, and the next day, and the sunshine, the little things in the world that make us happy. In fact..make a list.. post all the little things in the world that make you happy --that made you happy before OW...Think of them and write them down. Music, makes me happy, art and writing makes me happy, coffee makes me really happy, blue skies and daffodils blooming..new books, old books, chocolate, rainy Sundays with a cup of tea and a good movie. Popcorn.. the idea that around every corner is a new person or new experience we might encounter and enjoy. Please don't lose sight of what good there is ahead of you.