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| Thu, 09-16-2004 - 9:21am |
To boot, things are going down hill fast with H. I'm really not looking forward to our trip, haven't even started thinking about what to pack or what we'll do while there. We currently are not even speaking to one another.
I desperately want to talk to MM. Want to suggest that if he can mannage a business trip while I'm home in a couple of weeks I'd love it..that it would give me something to look forward to. A nice distraction from my hell of a life I'm having. Its so easy to justify your A. Its so easy to say I deserve what little happiness I can get whenever..wherever..if his W doesn't know whats the harm? ( I know the harm, I've been the W too on the other end) I truly did go into this A just for the fun of it, thinking since he was married he couldn't want more from me than what I could give...HAHAHAHA. These stupid things we tell ourselves.
Well, hope you all have a great day! JB
