How do you deal???

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-04-2009
How do you deal???
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Sun, 12-27-2009 - 12:39am

Hello everyone

I really really need to ask... how do you deal with the feeling of rejection??? I am having such a hard time with it. I feel as though one min I was his object of affection the next Im nothing to him. I I know this because I broke NC a few days ago. Yes made contact and made new hurts. I threw myself at him. I dont know what I was thinking. He didnt eat out of the palm of my hand. What was I thinking??? Well Christmas was difficult for me All I could do was hurt. The hurt is so unbearable. I took away from my family by not being there wholly. Thing is and I know this sounds confusing but I do want out. I pray everyday for peace of mind where I dont think or feel anything for him. But inside I do want him. You see the conflicting issues I am facing. Head is saying NO heart is crying for him. I think about that woman I was before this. I was positive and content. This A sucked me DRY. I feel like a "lump on a log" LOL I know cant get any more creative with describing how I feel. I was talking to the one and only friend I could talk to about this and she scared me when she said "I am scared for you... I dont see you getting over this" I agree with her I am scared to. I am still young and I have a whole life ahead of me. All I can do is cry and I find myself sighing quite often. That is how I have been living day to day. I know that it is because he is rejecting me. I did tell him we are done and he is just saying "OK" God, I feel so silly wanting something that isnt possible. It never was ever. I just loved what he brought to the table. He was so into me. I know its all EGO. IT IS!!! I do miss our talks and his smile and his crazy sense of humor. He made me giddy. I was at my highest with him. Now I am at the extreme LOW. I do have a positive NOTE. I will stick to NC even if it kills me LOL. Really, Im am so done with this pain. PLEASE pain GO AWAY!!!!!

Time heals all wounds, unless you pick at them. --Shawn Alexander

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iVillage Member
Registered: 12-11-2009
Mon, 12-28-2009 - 5:38pm

Hi, ibim~


I'm not over the feelings of rejection...my xap went nc cold turkey and that hurt like hell. One day it was love you, miss you and

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