How do you deal???
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| Sun, 12-27-2009 - 12:39am |
Hello everyone
I really really need to ask... how do you deal with the feeling of rejection??? I am having such a hard time with it. I feel as though one min I was his object of affection the next Im nothing to him. I I know this because I broke NC a few days ago. Yes made contact and made new hurts. I threw myself at him. I dont know what I was thinking. He didnt eat out of the palm of my hand. What was I thinking??? Well Christmas was difficult for me All I could do was hurt. The hurt is so unbearable. I took away from my family by not being there wholly. Thing is and I know this sounds confusing but I do want out. I pray everyday for peace of mind where I dont think or feel anything for him. But inside I do want him. You see the conflicting issues I am facing. Head is saying NO heart is crying for him. I think about that woman I was before this. I was positive and content. This A sucked me DRY. I feel like a "lump on a log" LOL I know cant get any more creative with describing how I feel. I was talking to the one and only friend I could talk to about this and she scared me when she said "I am scared for you... I dont see you getting over this" I agree with her I am scared to. I am still young and I have a whole life ahead of me. All I can do is cry and I find myself sighing quite often. That is how I have been living day to day. I know that it is because he is rejecting me. I did tell him we are done and he is just saying "OK" God, I feel so silly wanting something that isnt possible. It never was ever. I just loved what he brought to the table. He was so into me. I know its all EGO. IT IS!!! I do miss our talks and his smile and his crazy sense of humor. He made me giddy. I was at my highest with him. Now I am at the extreme LOW. I do have a positive NOTE. I will stick to NC even if it kills me LOL. Really, Im am so done with this pain. PLEASE pain GO AWAY!!!!!

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Hi, ibim~
I'm not over the feelings of rejection...my xap went nc cold turkey and that hurt like hell. One day it was love you, miss you and
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