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how to move on without answers!
| Wed, 02-16-2005 - 2:47pm |
that is the question! He won't return emails now... I send them off, pouring out my heart to him the way he use to do... and apparently my words/feelings/pain mean nothing to him now! :( It's killing me that he just keeps deleting the emails without so much as a "I'm sorry" or "I just can't right now" NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He knows (because I use to tell him) that ignoring me was the worst. I'd rather him come out and say "I can't see you" or "it's better this way" like he use to do... and now it's come down to NOTHING!
So... did I EVER mean anything to him? I can't imagine treating some I even USE to love like this! :( It's almost more than I can bear! :(
How can I get past needing answers!? :(

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Hi again Kat.
I was just reading my first contact with MM last spring, after about a month's NC from him. And just reading it makes my blood boil. He is not apologetic at all about leaving me in the dark for that long. After I sat here and wondered what was going on and he didn't even have the decency to let me know. What, am I too tempting that he can't even tell me its over???
I think the same thing is happening now. He has tried to end it a few times. Maybe he thinks by ignoring me for so long that eventually he will get over me.
Well, tu;rn around is fair play, because I feel like I'm kinda getting over him, slowly but surely. With each time of NC, my heart grows a little harder towards him.
Who knows, maybe someday I can be strong enough to say NO to him if he tries to come back into my life.
Dusty
Hang in there and keep posting,
kat
Hang in there and get the he** out of dodge.
kat
Hi there and Kat again too. Kat is right, they are the LOSERS, they lost us and what a good thing we were too!!!
Anyways, DON'T email or call him or anything, anymore!! Why do we accept this behavior from them? Especially if they don't have the b*lls to tell us the truth, I'm a big girl, I can take it. Just give it to me straight up, so I don't have to waste my time sending him emails about getting together again meanwhile he's there, KNOWING that he doesn't want to do it anymore, but won't even TELL me the truth about things.
And the sad part is, the last time he did this to me, he didn't even really apologize for it. It was just "oh well, sorry about that". And then moved on to getting back with me for the one thing he was missing in life (sex). Well SORRY, but I have toys now. Maybe I will get by with them instead of YOU. Take care,
Dusty
kat
Well the toys are never a disappointment, never have excuses at the last minute and don't talk back!! The perfect companion.
If I had gotten a few before I got M the 2nd time, who knows, I'd probably still be a single girl lol.
Dusty
Hey there i'm still in hellsville and it's not fun. I have talked to him today via email and well it's just all a bunch of bull**it, I'm not taking it anymore. I'm sick of sitting here and crying. I'll miss him, miss him a lot but I'll be dam if he doesn't have the balls to tell me how he feels, when just two weeks ago he was in love with me, no the 'wife' might be finding out something and well i'm nothing. I risked my marriage, children for him. But I have to say he made me feel beautiful, sexy, hot....etc things I haven't felt in years. How can you get that back with the man I'm with, is it possible? God I'm a mess, I miss him........
M~
Hi there honey, I'm sorry, we were having a bit of fun here and you are feeling miserable over there.
I know its rough, believe me, I've been thru it several times. And first couple of times, it hurt like hell. The crying and everything, I went thru it all too.
But now I think I've reached the point where I just don't care that much anymore. I'm over the loving feeling I used to have for him and think I can face reality now. Which is that its not a REAL R and that is why they treat us like crap. Because, they CAN.
I know what you mean about feeling sexy, wanted, ALIVE. I felt ALL of those things with my MM. And that's the hardest thing to face, is that I am in a relationship with H that does NOT make me feel those ways. And how do we continue on in life, missing out on those things?
If anyone knows the answer please tell. Because that's the scary part, is how easy it is to fall for a man who can make you feel all those things, but on the other hand, can just dump you just like that. And make you think it all counted for nothing.
Dry up those tears. And get yourself an attitude that you're not going to let him hurt you again.
Dusty
hey moeell,
just hang in there, just keep posting here
max
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