Husband & OM - driving me nutz

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Registered: 07-02-2004
Husband & OM - driving me nutz
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Sun, 05-01-2005 - 12:37pm

I cant NOT have a conversation w/H without fighting .
I am getting so tired physically & emotionally it is finally taking it's toll .

NC- with OM on my end for 6 wks. I beileve on the 18th out of the BLUE
om Ims me. Something he NEVER does we talked about getting together .

I guess I will be waiting for eternity ! I can't even begin to explain the lonlieness .

Wondering is anyone else here numbing the pain with wheter it be a substance or whatever .

I am teo things - FOOD - I am about 125 lbs overweight in my small mind I think if I lose this weight OM will fall madly in love w/ me.

This is going to be hard to say I also abuse marijuna - now you part of the reason I put on all this weight .

Feeling sorry for myself .. Maybe

SAD & lONELY - NNJ

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Registered: 03-13-2004
Sun, 05-01-2005 - 1:40pm

love,

pls try to get professional help, it is not good when u try to hurt yourself, i know we want to numb the pain but its not the solution, we have to face and fight the demons in our minds and heart

if u have insurance pls try to see a counselor and a doctor and get some help

its an addiction to OM already, u dont need another kind of substance abuse, just my opinion, have to take care of yourself

max

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Registered: 07-02-2004
Sun, 05-01-2005 - 2:31pm

Hi Max,

I have been in and out of counseling for years . I am just drained emotionally , Im tired of polluting my body . My body is my tool and I have LOST control .

H and I tried to do something together ( imagine that ) We get half way there and of course I am talking to a brick wall - He turns the car around and here I am home again .

He has a sleeping problem took a few Ambien and is snoring very loudly . This is my reality . I HATE IT !

i HOPE iM HITTING ROCK BOTTOM ( WHATEVER THAT IS )

I really do appreciate the advice . Thanx Max- MISERABLE IN NNJ

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Registered: 04-04-2005
Sun, 05-01-2005 - 3:40pm

Love

When we don't feel good about ourself there will be some people that will see it as an open door to take advantage of, Sorry dear but XOM is not in it for love he is just senseing an opportunity.

You need to do what is going to help you feel good about you with out having to look to an other person or drugs... do what it takes if it is a gym membership and a seperation then do it...your a human being your value is beyond measure.

Free

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Registered: 03-13-2004
Sun, 05-01-2005 - 4:29pm

love,

FREE is right, pls try to take care of yourself, if u have kids, your kids need u to be their mom, u cant give up, u just dont know it but u have more than what 75% of the human bieng in our planet, some people are living in realy bad conditions so i think we count ourselves lucky still in that perspective

pls take care of yourself, OM is not the answer, the answer is in you, i know u feel down and out but its gonna get better in time, i know it will

i dont know what to say but u must take care of yourself, dont do anything that u might regret later, pls think of your family, OM/MM is not worth it, i know u think he is the one or whatever, i think of OW the same way too, but its a fanstasy, u know, i know it we all know it here but some of us takes time to realize that

pls keep on posting here if it helps, we are all here for u

max