I almost broke NC today...

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-11-2009
I almost broke NC today...
7
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 11:41pm

But I DIDNT!!!!!!

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-14-2010
Fri, 02-18-2011 - 12:08am

DAMMIT! ARE YOU SERIOUS?/??!!!

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-18-2010
Fri, 02-18-2011 - 7:30am

Good you did not break it. And if anything, he may have not felt bad, he may have gotten a much needed ego stroke, I do not know your exAP or your story but I do know that they do all kinds of things to fish.

Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-17-2010
Fri, 02-18-2011 - 8:24am

Good Job girl!

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-22-2009
Fri, 02-18-2011 - 8:57am

My dear, Aliveagain....

Whew! That was too close for even my comfort.

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
iVillage Member
Registered: 08-11-2009
Fri, 02-18-2011 - 9:26am
Thank you so much Iddy. Unfortunately I cannot access this site from work so I cannot reach out to you guys during the day. I have found that to be very difficult since a lot of my triggers happen at work.... thank goodness I have at least one person I can text if I get desperate. And I actually did not write the email with the intention of sending it... I wanted to try and get the feelings out... but then there it was, (unaddressed) but would have been so easy to send... so I waivered back and forth for a while. But I did not want to expose myself to those harsh elements again... and I knew the anxiety I would have brought on myself had I sent it... right back to where I used to be.... waiting to see if he would write me back. ugh! not going there again.
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-31-2011
Fri, 02-18-2011 - 12:12pm

Oh, honey, do I understand!!!

About 3 days into NC, my xAP (he'd just recently reunited with his GF) sent out a company-wide email about software updates and his tone was SO cheerful (he's not a cheeful guy) that I was just floored!!!!!!

iVillage Member
Registered: 05-15-2010
Fri, 02-18-2011 - 12:12pm
Hi AA
Im glad you resisted the urge and maintained your NC. 5 weeks NC is amazing. You are through the worst of it.!! You go girl!!
MC