Sunrise what a great realization you have that coming here and letting those unsafe thoughts and unsafe place to be in out of your mind. What is even better is your ability to see those thoughts and recognize that you need to turn the focus onto yourself. I know ending the A pattern is difficult but I also know it can be done as I am also changing my thought processes. Sometimes I feel that steep hill is never going to even out and then I have a shining moment of recgonization of how far I have made it up that hill and it is worth all the pain and sweat. You are on your way as well Sunrise and being out of the A and giving yourself the time to heal and find your way through your issues is a wonderful gift you are giving yourself:)
Glad to hear you made it through yesterday and as Jenn says, huge for you to see what you would have been doing yesterday and how it really isnt as great as we think once the rose colored glasses are off so kudos to you for looking at that and seeing reality.
Great post. It was detailed and real. ALL too real to all of us, we all have similar experiences. I am happy this worked for you. Vent. It is how we get thru. I am proud to see your growth.
Glad to hear you made it through yesterday and as Jenn says, huge for you to see what you would have been doing yesterday and how it really isnt as great as we think once the rose colored glasses are off so kudos to you for looking at that and seeing reality.
Sunrise,
it really is cathartic to write things out - reading your account of
Wow, its been awhile since I mentally 'walked through' what my A nights were like and your post hit it right on.
Thanks for the reality check Sunrise! What a great description of the reality of an A, clear of all the fantasy and fog.
Today was a day that x and I had set aside to see each other and I am fighting hard
I just love how we gain strength and support from each other's posts/struggles!!
((((group hug)))
Sunrise thatnsk for the walk through hell to keep me reminded of what it used to be like.
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida