I am here...Part 2!

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-13-2010
I am here...Part 2!
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Tue, 02-15-2011 - 9:27am

THANK YOU ALL!

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-02-2011
Tue, 02-15-2011 - 10:11am
Hi sunrise ((hug)) I have no advice cuz yesterday was day 1 for me but I'm mostly in the same place as you!
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Registered: 07-17-2004
Tue, 02-15-2011 - 10:23am
Sunrise what a great realization you have that coming here and letting those unsafe thoughts and unsafe place to be in out of your mind. What is even better is your ability to see those thoughts and recognize that you need to turn the focus onto yourself. I know ending the A pattern is difficult but I also know it can be done as I am also changing my thought processes. Sometimes I feel that steep hill is never going to even out and then I have a shining moment of recgonization of how far I have made it up that hill and it is worth all the pain and sweat. You are on your way as well Sunrise and being out of the A and giving yourself the time to heal and find your way through your issues is a wonderful gift you are giving yourself:)
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Registered: 10-17-2010
Tue, 02-15-2011 - 11:09am

Glad to hear you made it through yesterday and as Jenn says, huge for you to see what you would have been doing yesterday and how it really isnt as great as we think once the rose colored glasses are off so kudos to you for looking at that and seeing reality.

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-31-2011
Tue, 02-15-2011 - 12:11pm

Sunrise,

it really is cathartic to write things out - reading your account of

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-21-2009
Tue, 02-15-2011 - 1:08pm

Wow, its been awhile since I mentally 'walked through' what my A nights were like and your post hit it right on.

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-24-2011
Tue, 02-15-2011 - 2:20pm

Thanks for the reality check Sunrise! What a great description of the reality of an A, clear of all the fantasy and fog.

Today was a day that x and I had set aside to see each other and I am fighting hard

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-31-2011
Tue, 02-15-2011 - 2:23pm

I just love how we gain strength and support from each other's posts/struggles!!

((((group hug)))

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-16-2010
Wed, 02-16-2011 - 1:54am

Sunrise thatnsk for the walk through hell to keep me reminded of what it used to be like.

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-24-2011
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 11:56pm
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-18-2010
Fri, 02-18-2011 - 7:35am
Great post. It was detailed and real. ALL too real to all of us, we all have similar experiences. I am happy this worked for you. Vent. It is how we get thru. I am proud to see your growth.
Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida