I am pissed

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Registered: 12-12-2004
I am pissed
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Mon, 02-28-2005 - 5:26pm

Hey everyone-

I've been out of the loop for a week. Many new names, it truly saddens me. DH made it home safe. Now it's time to adjust to being together again as a family. I know it will take some time. I miss the freedom of getting up and going whenever I please without providing the courtesy who, what, when, where, etc.

Today...I am super angry at MM. I just feel pissed off. So where do I vent these emotions if I am supposed to have NC with him? It's not like my words make a difference anyways. But these feelings of anger are overwhelming today!!!!!!!!!!!

SS

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Registered: 09-24-2003
In reply to: sunshine_tx76
Mon, 02-28-2005 - 5:49pm
OH SS I know the feeling, you know what I did today I started a journal and just ranted and raved in there, it felt good. I don't want to contact him and let him think that I actually care, I want to be cold and heartless just like HIM!!! So maybe try that I wish you luck,it's hard and I hate it!!!
M~
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Registered: 12-28-2003
In reply to: sunshine_tx76
Mon, 02-28-2005 - 6:39pm

Hey SS

Try the GYM, it can really help to vent out the emotions and the STRESS, on tope of that it can do wonders for your BUTT.

Seriously consider joining one if your not already a member and going daily and working up a good sweat it can help a lot, did for me anyway. (and now I have a butt that can crack walnuts)

Free

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Registered: 07-08-2003
In reply to: sunshine_tx76
Mon, 02-28-2005 - 8:16pm

Vent them here, Sunshine! That you're angry is of no concern to him, but it helps if you can get at the exact nature of why you're so angry. Obviously, I KNOW that XMM's actions appear to be the cause, but what did they stir up in you???? That's what you need to address. What are his actions making you feel, besides anger? Anger is a very real emotion, but it is often related to something else. Try to think about what that is. Until you figure out these emotions, XMM, and your anger, will probably hold you hostage.

I'm glad that your H made it home safely. Try to have an open mind and see what comes of it. I understand that you will miss the freedom of coming and going as you wish, but if that freedom means that much to you, perhaps marriage isn't the best alternative for you. Just something to chew on.

Best wishes! Mo.

mo 7-18-10

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Registered: 09-09-2003
In reply to: sunshine_tx76
Tue, 03-01-2005 - 11:26am

Hello ladies. Free, you are so right, you must have read my mind. I belong to a gym but its not the greatest, I am going to check out a different one this week. I am really going to work on ME from now on, and to h*ll with MM.

Looking good is the best revenge, even though he'll never see me again!!

And Sunshine, you are right too, we should try to be as cold and heartless as these MM are. And remember that if they EVER try to get in touch with us again, how EASILY they just dropped us when it suited them. What goes around, comes around. I would just like him to feel a LITTLE of the pain I have gone thru. Have a nice day!!

Dusty

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Registered: 12-28-2003
In reply to: sunshine_tx76
Tue, 03-01-2005 - 11:36am

Dusty

>>>"Looking good is the best revenge, even though he'll never see me again!!"<<<

Oh So True.

Second best is to be totally INDIFFERENT TO THEM, not give one wit about anything they ever did or said and not give a crap if they do try to contact you again.

Free

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Registered: 12-12-2004
In reply to: sunshine_tx76
Tue, 03-01-2005 - 11:47am

Ya'll are great. I thought about it yesterday. I am angry at him for acting like it has been no big deal that I am no longer a constant in his life. But....then today I got an email saying he misses me so made me feel better. But...I am also very angry at myself for the way I lowered myself and acted as if standards and morals were foreign to me.
Anyways...ya'll are great. Thanks for listening.

SS