I Am So Glad! :)

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Registered: 09-30-2011
I Am So Glad! :)
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Mon, 12-17-2012 - 1:38pm

 Hello everyone :) I just wanted to state that it feels so good to over that creep xap! I woke up today feeling very hopeful and happy that I am officially over him! :) It took along time because I was in limbo for so long and I was absolutely stuck. I had to look within myself to find out why I had these feelings and  get to the bottom of it.

 I found out that I was just chasing a fantasy. I knew he wasn't a good guy he was really manipulative a complete narcisist a dead beat father. One who doesnt even know "ALL" his children except for his son who is older than me. It feels so good not to be sad about it anymore the sadness has turned to anger. Anger that I didnt get my head out of my A@! before now! That I dwelled and was in limbo for 2 years and I didnt realize I had the key.

 This weekend was the first time that xap brought one of his "women" from his parade home and I wasnt sad or angry. I just felt sorry for her really sorry because I don't want her to go through what I went through and that was complete h*ll. I prayed and I prayed to get where I am today. I can finally discuss it with my DH and we are getting things back on track. I dont mean to toot my own horn but I just wanted to share how freeing it is to be here. :) Thanks for letting me share.

 Peace Love Andie

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Registered: 11-04-2012
Mon, 12-17-2012 - 3:37pm

Toot away! *holding nose* 

It's important that we learn to pat ourselves on the back for a job well done.  I don't think many of us have been all that comfortable doing that...and we wait around and become resentful when others don't recognize our efforts...so we have to get comfortable doing it for ourselves.  

Welcome to freedom.

((hugs))

Clarity

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