i broke down today and contacted him....

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Registered: 03-30-2004
i broke down today and contacted him....
Fri, 05-13-2005 - 6:04pm
Its been a mth and NC from him.. i emailed him today to say i was thinking about him .. he then got online and IMed me... i should have never contacted him.. hind site.. he said hes working hard on his marriage and when he got "caught" and his kids got affected it botherd him.. he was wondering how i was hoping i was ok he thinks of me sometimes too.. hes very sorry this happend.. hes sorry if he was mean to me.. but if he gets caught again he is deffinatly done.. and please dont hate me is what he says.. told him i could never.. but part of me does.. wish i could have just told him that... and well that was pretty much it.. i had to go my H was commming home and then hes like , now ur trying to get rid of me?! what the ?!? so i dont know .. i guess maybe this is the closure i needed? it was left hanging the last conversation when it was over .. now i know it is .. im insigificant... i know it 100% now and maybe now i can move on .. i hope so.. i will be there next weekend where his summer place is .. i hope to not run into him.. it will hurt too much .. hopefully he will remember im going to be there and not be around.... this still is very difficult ,but maybe now i can be done.. i know where i stand... thanks for listening......