yes it is true. Me, the strong person who was getting past thing crap broke NC. XOM was text messaging me and I finally had enough and called, not to say hello, how are you but to tell him off. And I did. I was calm, I didn't raise my voice, and I was to the point and rational. It felt good to be in so much control, and I attribute over 6 weeks NC to that. I brought up the crappy things that he did, the lies and the stuff with this other woman and he admitted that he was a pig and what he did was dispicable. I told him that his words really meant nothing and he knew that too. He sounded really depressed, really meek and apologetic, but that is all part of his manipulation. I called him a sick man and told him that i felt pity for him, and he said he was not sick and didn't want my pity. He said he had hit rockbottom, and I told him that he didnt because someone like him always has someone to go to for comfort and doesn't hit rockbottom. He said that if i do not believe anything else, to please believe that he did love me...I told him that he did't know what love was. That his life evolved around getting laid, and that is what is more important to him. I told him that I knew he had a married woman fetish, that apparantly I was not the first and not the last although he led me to believe otherwise. He didn't put up too much of a fight, he knows that I speak the truth and he cannot say anything to defend himself. He mentioned some crap about getting his life together, going back to church and maybe sometime years down the road he could apologize to me and it mean something, or he could write a letter, I told him I didn't think so and not to bother. His words mean nothing. They will always mean nothing. Finally I got tired of hearing his nonsense and I told him I hated him and hung up. I kind of lost my composure towards the end. Bringing up things that he did brought alot of the pain back, feelings that I had suppressed.
Did telling him off make me feel better? no...it served no purpose. The only thing I can say is that maybe now he will stop trying to get in touch with me. NO more letters mailed to me or text messages on my phone. I have changed my phone number numerous times because of him, I guess if I have to then I will do it again. Do I feel like a failure for breaking NC? No...If I had called him crying that I loved him and wanted to be in a relationship with him again then I would have felt like a failure. I am stronger now and I am proud of how I handled things. Now I am only looking towards my future, and it looks bright. I am leaving this pathetic loser and his world of madness in the past where it belongs. I emailed his other married lover and told her to please leave me alone also, I had nothing to say to her I have moved on and they can have eachother. She has no need to be threatened by me any longer. The whole situation is so pathetic and almost comical at this point.
So i was ashamed to come on here and post that I broke NC, but i really felt that I had no choice given that he was not getting the point that NC means forever. Please don't post about what a failure I am. I think given the circumstances I am doing pretty well.
I am eager to move on. The hurt that he has caused will stay with me for a very long time...maybe even forever....but the important thing is that NC will help me get on with my life and away from him forver too...and that is what is most important to me at this time.
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