i could not take it anymore so i .......

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Registered: 03-13-2004
i could not take it anymore so i .......
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Wed, 03-16-2005 - 9:56pm

hi all,

i could take it anymore so this evening i went to OW and talked to her

i told her how much i care for her and that i hurt so much and then i told her that SHE LIED to me all along, i told her that if she realy cares and she wants to be with me then she would be with me daughter or not

i told her we cannot be friends at all , did not say goodbye or anything, i told her she is mean to me and that she lied to me

well i dont know if its right or wrong but i felt like telling her how i feel, i told her that i still could not accept what she did to me

i think i am moving on, im am realy upset at myself for making myself feel like this, i am not upset at her at all and i dont want to feel like this anymore, i had enough already, i know ill be sad and depress but i will deal with it

i told her she treated me like sh** and she treat people she does not like better than me, i was so upset, all this took like 15 minutes

i think after tonite i will not talk to her anymore, she said we will be friends again when i get over it but i told her we will not be friends anymore, it hurts even to be friends with her

max

now i have big headache

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Registered: 06-18-2004
Thu, 03-17-2005 - 11:15am

Max,

Just adding to Free's comments.

For your sake, I hope you leave her alone now. It could affect your status at work, I don't know if you are peers or she is in management, but if you keep this kind of thing going, she could start something (such as a harassment claim, even though it may not be justified).

I believe it would be a good thing if you looked for another job and started over somewhere else.

JMHO

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Thu, 03-17-2005 - 4:52pm

hi all,

im calm now, i was just pissed of last nite, came to work this morning actually not feeling anything anymore for OW, im still upset at her but i wont have any contact with her anymore, i mean very less since we work together but different bosses

i saw her today in the parking lot and she said hi and i also nod my head, i usually feel sad or nauseated but i dont feel it now

i hope it get better from her, yes i am aware of the harrassment things here in CA, of course i am steering away from that, i am also looking for another job the the pickins are slim right now, OW is also looking for another job, i hope she finds one and leaves so i dont have to leave

it been a very numb day for me, another manager even made a comment that i looked happy today, i was so shocked to hear it

max
:)

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 03-18-2005 - 12:35am

Take two aspirin for your headache. It will pass. You did the right thing in setting a clear boundary with xMW.


Now use the space you've defined to keep moving forward....


cl-nre

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Registered: 03-13-2004
Fri, 03-18-2005 - 12:53am

cl,

actually headache is now gone, my stress and anxiety level at work has gone down, i was able to concentrate at work much better

i think this is the beginning of me moving forward, i hope i can keep it up but i can see improvements already, i dont get anxious anymore, dont feel like crying anymore, i tried to cry but i cannot anymore

this board has helped me a lot, i dont want to feel sad and miserable anymore and its getting better now

im not kidding myself , i still think of her but its only that, just think of her, the emotions attached to it are not so intense anymore that i am able to cope already, i usually get sad or lonely when i think of her and sometimes cry but not now

its a new feeling for me and i think its good

max

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 03-18-2005 - 1:03am
It's beyond "good". It's great. You're HEALING!!!!!!

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