I did it

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Registered: 08-24-2004
I did it
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Thu, 11-11-2004 - 8:12am
I took your advice Free and went out last night, so I have no idea if xMM stopped by. This time I'm going to call IT so I don't end up in this situation again. Thanks for your support!
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Registered: 12-28-2003
Thu, 11-11-2004 - 9:26am
Blue

Good for you, I bet your feeling right OKAY this morning about you.

WELL DONE GIRL

Free

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Registered: 07-08-2003
Thu, 11-11-2004 - 9:36am
Hi! I read your first post on the moment of insanity with the IM situation, and I can totally relate. I posted something very similar a few weeks ago. My XMM was contacting me by text message and when I was feeling totally strong, I just didn't respond. But about a month ago, in a moment of complete weakness and insanity, I did respond. It's like I didn't even think about what I was doing. I didn't hear everybodys' voice on this board shouting "don't do it!" I totally disconnected, and shot back a message. Eventually I did realize what I was doing, got a grip on myself, and shut my cellphone down. And I absolutely learned something from that experience: I CANNOT allow myself even the most minimal contact with XMM. I have so little control over myself where he's concerned.

You absolutely did the right thing by going out last night, but I know I don't have to tell you that. I'm sure you feel it today. Think about how much better your life is, less complicated, more dignified, today, because you didn't cave and see him last night. Good job, honey! Love, Mo.

mo 7-18-10

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Registered: 08-24-2004
Thu, 11-11-2004 - 9:55am
Thanks Free & Mo. I do feel good today that I didn't see xMM. I did a lot of thinking about him and I realized that I lose control when I'm around him and even though I'd like to think I would not go there again, if I was alone with him the inevitable would happen. I'm too weak with him and I know that I cannot even have the slightest of contact b/c then my resolve fades away. I also realized that I do not want to be physical with him b/c I know I would end up confessing to my H b/c I've found that I just cannot lie to him. And I cannot hurt him again. I do not want to lose H, even though we clearly have our problems. Fortunately, xMM will be away for the next few days so that will give me some much needed time away and then hopefully by the time he returns I will have cut off all modes of communication so that he cannot sneak back in. He made me feel like crap, treated me like crap, and afterall he is so very tiny (hahaha)!
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Registered: 12-28-2003
Thu, 11-11-2004 - 10:08am
Blue

In future posts and when you are thinking about him or here his name... way don't you subsatute the new name TINY or XTTM = X TENY TINY MAN.

Hard to get all hot and bothered about a man your laughing at.

Free

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Registered: 08-24-2004
Thu, 11-11-2004 - 10:19am
Free

That's a great idea!! XTTM can go crawl back to the sewers from which he came from. I do however feel sorry for the rats that will now have to put up with his most undesirable company!

Blue-eyed