I did it!! I walked away for good
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I did it!! I walked away for good
| Wed, 01-14-2004 - 6:29am |
Xmm & I met a couple days ago. I went to see him, to see if I really did want to continue this affair or walk away. My love for him is strong but after comments he's made in conversation to me lately and lack of time he has for me (other than when it convenient for him), I finally walked away. We talked, I cried, he held me, asked what could he do to make things better. (In his eyes everything was okay). I told him, he wasn't at fault that it was all me,(cause you see...really my expectations, were different from his.) His were 90% sex, 10% conversation. Mine were.. spending more time together for things other than sex, The little things in life. I guess being a women, I feel this isn't too much to ask when you love someone. And I have found out that in an affair this isn't always possible. I made a list in my mind of "pros" and "cons" from this relationship as to why I should go. The cons definately won. I did tell him tho that I will always love him. And I will.
When I left him I felt relief, freedom, and thankful I will be able to get back to my ol' self. No more lies, cheating, and sneaking around. Oh, I'm sure I'll have bad days, but I'll make it thru.
Thank you to everyone here for your support and wonderful advice. Please take care of yourselves, love yourselves, & be strong. Make your life all about you. Because YOU are what matters. Everything else good will fall into place.
Take care :)

Iknowitstime
(and so do you)
Congratulations.. I'm glad your feeling GOOD about your CHOICES>..enjoy the control of your life..
Kudos
Katja