I did it...finally!
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| Thu, 02-24-2005 - 12:15pm |
Is this fake enthusiasm? Perhaps, but if I don't keep it up, I will burst into tears and break down...anyone know that feeling?
I just ended an intense 7 month affair today, and it wasn't pretty. There was just no way to part on good terms, as good as that sounds, it's nearly impossible. And since our lives won't intersect (we never run into each other or have any common ties, friends, etc.) no contact SHOULD be easy....but will it be? When does it get bearable?
Any advice?
So can someone tell me about this phase? Will it hurt this bad tomorrow, next week, next month? I have to keep a happy face on for my DH and DD who is three...
I want to have absolutely NC (no contact) and I plan on coming here daily to read and gain support from other posters.
Thank you for reading this, it feels great to post here and I welcome any thoughts.
E

I think you made a great choice to end it. It is a bit easier I think when you don't have contact that much anyway ( as in my case) The urge to send an email or call or just hear his voice does tend to get the best of you at times however. I tried no contact for 2 months and then made final contact with him and ended it for good. He does work in the same field as me and has tried to send me IM's since then but I have ignored them all. At first I found that it was just kind of a loss of what you were used to more than anything else. The attention was gone, the sneaking around you get used to doing is done so you feel kind of bored without it. You also have the hurt that comes along with any ended relationship.
I went through alot of phases at first. I was very hurt. I kept wondering if he had actually really liked me or just used me for sex. I was very confused about everything. And I was the one choosing to end it. Then I started to get pis*ed off! At him, at me at the world! Now I've kind of just wised up to the whole situation. I see it for what it was worth. A learning experience if nothing else. I am a much stronger, better person than I was when I started the A. I don't feel happy for what I did, but I am trying to place it into the scheme of who I am. And the big picture that is my life.
I wish you the best of luck in everything. You will get through this in one piece, and you will come out a happier person in the end.
Big hugs to you!
~nuttmeg