I Don't Deserve H or Anything

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Registered: 08-24-2004
I Don't Deserve H or Anything
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Sun, 01-23-2005 - 9:25pm

Hi all. I'm again posting here b/c I am so thoroughly depressed and low in my life. I know I do not deserve H or anything good in life. I'm hurting so bad b/c I used to be a good person, a loyal person who would never hurt anyone, particularly those who I love. I don't deserve my H or his love, I am horrible wh**e of a woman. I don't deserve to be this good person's wife. We talked tonight about my indiscretions. He had such hurt and pain in his eyes. While he has not said he definitely wants to get a divorce, he did say he wasn't sure if we could work thru things, he wasn't sure if he had it in him anymore to try to make our M work. I am thoroughly devastated and feel I have nowhere and no one to turn to, except this board and my therapist (who I will be seeing again tomorrow night). I don't know what I'm asking for from anyone on this board, other than perhaps a shoulder to cry on, or some words of hope. I don't know. Please help me get thru this horrible time, I know I am not strong enough on my own right now.

Thank you, Blue

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iVillage Member
Registered: 08-24-2004
Mon, 01-24-2005 - 11:27pm

I just wanted to thank you all for being so supportive and kind to me. This board has helped me so much even though I know I still have a long way to go. I don't know what I'd do without you!! Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

:-) Blue

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Registered: 09-07-2004
Tue, 01-25-2005 - 12:18am
Hi sunshine remember me? We spent Xmas Eve alone on the AS board. I am here not cos my affair has ended but just wanted to say hi to you and thank you for being there when I felt so alone. I love your attitude. Wish I could be as strong as you are.
Soon
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Registered: 12-05-2004
Tue, 01-25-2005 - 12:46am

Sure I remember you!

I am always here for everyone... if you ever want to email me feel free!

You can do what I've done if you really want to. You just have to get to that point inside yourself where you are really ready.

Coming here and the All-Sides board are great places to start.... those ladies have helped me find enormous amounts of strength within myself that I didn't know existed.

I'd love to see you over there sometime...

How are things with you? Update me!

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